My badboy boyfriend [PabStell]

05

Matapos kong mailapag ang dalang bag sa sofa ay iwinasiwas ko ang aking kamay sa paligid trying hard not to breathe as I entered his room, dali dali akong pumunta sa pintuan ng balcony at binuksan ito.

Nakahinga naman ako ng maluwag, finally I can breathe, I breathe once more at sinunod na buksan ang mga bintana. After I opened all the windows in his room. I went to the kitchen opening the cabinets one by one trying to find some trash ba, May nakita ako sa pinakadulo ng cabinet. Along with some gloves.

Bit bit ko yun papasok sa kwarto niya, I first folded the hem of my sleeves up to my elbows and put on some gloves bago magsimulang maglinis, nakangiti siyang pinapanuod ako habang nakaupo sa kama.

Inuna ko munang linisin yung upos ng mga sigarilyo na nasa mesa, I felt uneasy when I sense that his staring at me, I tried to come up with conversation, and asked an obvious question. "I didn't know that you smoke?"

"paminsan-minsan lang" he response casually

"But you don't smell like one?"

"i always got rid of the smell, especially when i get close to you." After that I couldn't think of anything to ask, so I just kept quiet again and so did he.

Pinagpatuloy ko nalang ulit ang paglilinis, sinunod kong ilagay sa trash bag ang mga bote nang alak na nakakalat sa sahig, hindi ko napansin na may basag pala ang isa sa mga bote na aking nahawakan, I winced ng masugatan ako sa hintuturo. I remove the gloves that I wear at sinuri kung malamin ba ang sugat.

Lumapit siya sa akin na bakas ang pag aalala sa mukha, "what happened?"

" I cut my forefinger " I said laughing it off. "tsk!" he clicked his tongue, hinila niya ako patayo at kinuha sa kamay ko yung trash bag at bote, ibinaba niya ito sa sahig at pinaupo ako sa kama. He knelt in front of me checking my wound's. "Pablo, I'm fine, don't worry band aid lang ang katapat nito." I assured him but I came to a halt, my eyes widen, when he started to suck my finger.

Gamit ang isa kong kamay naitakip ko yun sa aking mukha ayaw kong makita niya ang pamumula nito. Binitawan niya na ang daliri ko after that, I immediately stood up and runs to the balcony, I inhaled and exhaled trying to calm my heart. I put my hand on my chest where my heart is. I can still hear it's rapid beating.

He was trying to approach me when I stopped him, "can you stay away, please I just need some time" pakiusap ko. I heard him sigh before he agreed. "I'm just going to take a bathe, you can have your time as long as you like Stell, but don't forget to call me if you need anything, okay?" paalala niya

I nod bago ko marinig ang pagbukas at pagsara ng pintuan. Nang masigurong wala na siya sa kwarto ay bumigay ang mga tuhod ko bago napasalampak sa sahig, letting out the words only I could hear

"i'm doomed, i think i like him ....."