Love on the High Seas

Day 3

I came back to my bed preoccupied. I was thinking if he was just playing with me. I was thinking, weighing things around if he finds me funny. A toy that he can play with.

Fuck it!

What if he's just playing with me?

Bullshit!

I didn't come here to just being played around! I came here to enjoy! What the hell is going on?! What the hell is this?!

Donald, what the hell is this shit?!

Do you find me entertaining?!

Oh, shit! Why did I even allow him to get close to me?

You're such a lowly woman, Ayra Gaile!

"Oh, you're awake."

Donald saw me sitting on my bed, preoccupied. I gritted my teeth as I slowly turn my gaze at him, giving him a piercing look.

After playing with me, he got to approach me like that? How could you, Donald!

I saw how he got stunned for a moment to see me looking at him like that. But I don't care. I don't want to see his face again.

"W-What's with---"

Before he could even complete his words, I stood up, leaving him behind. I was supposed to open the door to shoo him away when he stopped me by gripping on my wrist.

"AG, what's... happening?"

I closed my eyes as I gritted my teeth. He sounded confused.

What's with the confusion, Donald? Was it part of your plan? To fully fool me?

Never again, Donald! I won't allow myself to be fooled again!

"Leave," I coldly say. "Before I could send you out of this room, just leave, Donald. And don't ever come back here."

I noticed how he got shock on what I've said. Padabog kong binawi ang kamay ko mula sa pagkakahawak niya. Akmang aalis na ako nang hawakan niyang muli ang kamay ko.

Kaagad na nagsalubong ang kilay ko. I was about to shout at him when his reaction welcomed me.

He's... confused.

I shook my head.

No. You were just being played by him, Ayra. Don't ever believe on him!

Napatingala ako sa kanya nang marinig siyang awkward na tumawa. "Seriously. W-What's... happening? I don't understand it. I can't understand why I need to leave."

I sarcastically laugh at him. "Then better get to know yourself. And then find it out yourself, fucker."

I turn my back at him.

"AG---"

"Don't... ever call me on that name again. I hate it. Nakakarindi."

Ramdam ko ang bahagyang pagkatigil niya sa sinabi ko. Akmang maglalakad na ako palapit sa pinto nang magsalita muli siya.

"Can you tell me what's going on? Para alam ko naman kung anong nangyayari. Fuck it! We're okay yesterday. We even had dinner. What the fuck is going on? I'm confused. Can you tell me--"

I turn at him and give him a hard slap on the face. Kita ko ang pagkatabingi ng mukha niya. Ngunit, kasabay ng malakas na sampal ko na iyon sa kanya ay ang marahas na pag-agos ng luha ko.

Nasasaktan ako.

I came here to enjoy. But this little love embraced me with a warm hug. It comforts me. It convinced me to accept it little by little. I was on my accepting era in which I could admit that I am inlove... but then this. This happened.