Broken Bond

Page Fourteen : Crawl Before We Walk...

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The cold weathering months have come and gone so quickly...now It's spring...my pups have grown somewhat...they've been up and about as much as possible crawling and getting into anything and everything...at first I pulled my hair out because I couldn't handle the crying...or I became so exhausted with having to feed them both at the same time...I knew I couldn't depend on my parents to help me forever...I had to learn how to handle It all...so I let them go back to Musutafu.

I absolutely could not call on Kacchan...after our shared kiss all those months ago...I avoided him for like three weeks...I was so embarrassed and upset with myself...I was the one who said that I wanted to wait and that I needed time to think...but then there I was...sucking on his delectable lips like a starved man...I cursed myself quietly once I was able force myself to pull away.

He didn't seem angry or worried...he just told me to lay down and rest while he helped take care of Her̀o and Halo...I could only nod and do as I was told...I needed the sleep desperately so I smiled and said good night...when I woke up later that day I felt somewhat better...my tiny breast were full and ready for feeding...Kacchan placed himself right next to me on the loveseat...he watched the whole process and when It was all done...he offered to burp one while I burped the other.

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Now It's become a normal thing for me to wake up to Kacchan cooking breakfast in my kitchen with the babies attached to his ankles...I always groan when he turns around with those beautiful crimson eyes shining so bright...and then there's that freaking blinding smile of his...then when the boys notice me...I get hit with more cuteness...my heart literally can not handle It.

He's always there when I need him now...need It be to help around my apartment or with the pups...or if I want something to eat but don't feel like cooking...he's like my very own...Alpha...I wanna believe that It's to soon to be thinking like that...I know I need more time to figure everything out...but when I get to see him almost every day...I can't help but allow those feeling to grow.

I told myself all those months ago that I could do It all without him...and that I didn't need a damn Alpha to take care of me...I tried my best to drill those words into my head...but in the end...my heart won the battle...my love for him trumps out every doubt I had when It came to him...he's proven to me that he can be who I want...I want him as my Alpha and as my mate.

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And then there's the other unclaimed Alpha in my life...Jessica...she's come by to visit me and the babies...she kept her distance for the first two months...there was no way that Kacchan would allow her around the boys while he scent marked them...allowing his scent to intertwine with theirs...and mines...he made It clear to her and any other Alpha that we belong to him...all except for my father of course...grandpa gets a pass.

Only when Kacchan was satisfied with his scenting...did he deem It alright for her to visit...he explained that he saw her as a threat...I shook my head at his silly words...until I realized why he felt that way...Jessica had planned months ahead...she had planned on courting me after I had given birth to my pups...whenever she came by she always had a courting gift with her...flowers or nesting materials...jewelry...I began to see why Kacchan did what he did.

He laid his claim on us to show her that I was off limits...that I was already claimed in a way...and then I began to notice her behavior towards the boys...she interacted with them but she also kept her distance...being a dominant Alpha herself...she could tell that their scents were somewhat mixed with Kacchan's...her face would always twist with mild anger when she hugged me before taking her leave...she could smell him on me to.

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After three months of making no progress with courting me...Jessica finally decided to verbally voice her thoughts...the evening before she asked me if we could talk about the whole situation...I knew It was coming...call It a seventh sense or whatever...when she came the next morning I was more then prepared to explain that I had made my decision...that I had chosen him.

What I didn't tell her was that Kacchan would be here when she came...he made It a habit of coming here after work sometimes...and he sleeps on the couch or on the futon in my bedroom to be closer to me and our pups...when she arrived he was in the middle of making breakfast for us...to say that she was upset is an understatement.

She barely noticed me or the two small infants latched onto my chest...her eyes were focused on the Alpha's back that was standing in my kitchen...his pajama pants hung extremely low and he was shirtless...no shoes or slippers on his feet...hair a sexy disheveled mess...I could see the wheels turning in her mind...she was definitely an open book "...He's living here now?...I thought you said that you needed time...what happened to you needing time to think?" I sighed softly before speaking.

I turned my head back to the female Alpha and sighed once again "...No...he isn't living here Jess...he comes to spend time with his children...he wants to be here with them...I won't deny him that right...and I've decided to accept...him courting me I mean..." I could see the internal battle within her chocolate color eyes...even with how sharp they were...I could still see the pain within them.

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She didn't say much to me after that day...I knew that It had to be done...but that didn't mean that I hated myself less for hurting her...I generally saw her as a great friend...someone I could lean on when I needed to...she's helped me so much and I will always be grateful to her for mending me...but the heart wants what It wants and...mines wants Kacchan.

He had heard my conversation with her...he didn't intervene nor did he comment about how she left...he didn't ask me any questions about It...he left me to figure It out on my own and I was grateful for that...I felt like I was loosing something so precious...something you can only find every once in a blue moon...a true friend...he explained that one day she would come around...It may not be right away...or a year from now...or even five years after...but one day she will see.

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