Helluva Lifestyle

Look My Way: Part 1

{A/N: Since the original version of the original fanmade version of this song by @ParanoidDJ on Youtube came out between the release of 'Truth Seekers' & 'Ozzie's', that's when this chapter takes place. The lyrics differ from those of the video above because they're transcribed from the new version of the song, which will be published between the 'Oops' & 'Mammon's Magnificent Musical Mid-Season Special' chapters.}

3rd Person POV:

You know those days when all you wanna do is sit in a dark room and contemplate the pros and cons, minus the pros, of your life? Well, for Roxanne, today is one of those days. The room would be dark if it weren't for light currently shining through the star-shaped lampshade Stolas gave her a while ago, the star-shaped light covering the walls and ceiling with stars as the shad spins round and round. This was one of the many pros her relationship with Stolas & Blitzø brought her, and the warm feeling she gets every time her boys crack a smile and say sweet nothings in her ear behind closed doors. But for now, all she can think of, besides that one happy thought, is what the relationship could cost the three of them if it progresses any further or if anyone besides I.M.P. were to find out.

Roxanne: "Why do I always have to make things so difficult? If I'm not questioning myself, I'm questioning my relationship. Good going, Roxie. Date a married royal and your boss and hope for the best. What could go wrong? Hmm, let's see. It's unethical; people could find out, and, oh, yeah, you could get fired or have your heart broken two times over. And yet, you still need and want them in your life, and I guess your bed. Oh, that would've gotten you, eh, Blitzy?-*chuckles & sighs*-Christ on a stick, when did my life get so complicated?"

Roxanne:

{About Stolas}

It is expected

An oath by blood to hold the tome

And the starlight passes overhead

Fuels all the skills you've honed

You are a guardian

A watcher of these ancient rites

Yet it seems you've found yourself drawn from that path

On those dazzling moonlit nights

{About Stolas & Blitzø}

Let me hold you

Keep you close to me

I long to hear your voices

But dearests, I know better now

I must give you this choice

Can I give you everything you need

Or do you want to hear me plead?

Just look my way

Just look my way

{About Blitzø}

Is there something more that I don't know

That you won't say 'til we've all grown cold?

Just say

Please stay

Look my way

{About Stolas & Blitzø}

This unspoken contract

A deed we forged for mutual gain

If that's all this was when you're not here

What is this rooted pain?

{About Stolas}

I don't care that you're of higher station

{About Blitzø}

Or primed to sate my dark temptations

Why can't you understand?

Let me explain

{About Stolas & Blitzø}

And I'm terrified

As I cry

To make these feelings true

What's left for me and my broken heart

If I cannot have you?

Unless it's me

And no matter what in this world I could give

{About Blitzø}

It's not enough

To get through the walls you've conjured up to live

Is this what you feel

Scorned by a realm that cannot comprehend

What you are?

{About Stolas & Blitzø}

So I'll grant you this mercy

This bind on our souls needs to end

I will try to make amends

For making you means to an end

So, look my way

Please, look my way

And if there's something more that I don't know?

I'll save us all before we grow cold

If you'll stay

And just say

Look my way