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The Full Moon

Roxanne's POV:

I awaken with a smile as my alarm clock goes off, excited for my monthly date with Blitzø & Stolas tonight. I rise to sit up, slip on my red slippers, and shut off my alarm.

Me:

Thank you to the butterflies in my stomach

I emerge from the bed in my nightshirt and gather my formal work clothes while glancing at my photos of me with Moxxie, Millie, Loona, Blitzø, Via, & Stolas.

Me:

I haven't felt this nervous yet excited since I was a little cutesy, naive girl

My daring do is half-disguised

Behind the smile, my teeth are grinding, ever minding

I swore I wouldn't dwell on the hypotheticals, so for my own health, I'll remind myself

I hop into the shower to freshen up and wash my hair.

Me:

That when I see them, I know that it won't feel so tough

Once I'm done, I emerge from the shower, dry my hair, and clear some of the steam from the mirror.

Me:

I'll believe them and not the voice that says I'm not enough

No need for an arrangement, it can just be them and me, I'll wait and see

I then get dressed and head back into my room to make the bed.

Me:

How perfect it could be when I see them tonight

{A/N: Imagine the transition to Blitzø and/or Stolas happens as she lifts the top sheet, and it floats in the air as she makes the bed}

Me:

When I see them

We can change things

I take some of the anti-anxiety medication prescribed by the psychiatrist Stolas found for me. I enter the kitchen and pour my coffee into my mug before adding cream and sugar.

Me:

But hopefully, still, keep it nice and light

That said, I'll fucking die alone if this goes bad

When I see them tonight

Still, I can't help but let my nerves get the best of me.

Me:

Am I doing something I can't take back?

3rd Person POV:

Stolas:

Would they want me if they were free?

And if they're only here as prisoners, what kind of monster does that make me?

Roxanne's POV: