Warning! There might be violent actions such as abuse! If you don't like it, skip.
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"YOU LIKE WHO?? WHAT ABOUT..." I can't tell who was yelling as I was rudely woken up, not the first time, but still pissed off. "YOU LIKE LILY WHAT ABOUT RE.." The boy screamed at the top of his lungs. I slowly rise and rub my eyes. "JUST GET OUT, JAM.." I hear the door slam as I open my eyes to see Barty, tears rolling down his face as he faces me. He wipes his tears away. "Are you ok re?" He asks, his voice breaking slightly. I hate seeing my friends cry. "What happened?" I question knowing he was going to say nothing. "Nothing, don't worry about it, re." Sigh.
(Writer here: Re is a nickname for Regulus. I just wanted to add that just in case you got a bit confused.)
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I was going to the great hall, but all of a sudden, James dragged me into the girls' toilet, "Were you and Barty fighting earlier?" I recognised their voices a bit.
"I'm sorry, reggy." I hate that nickname, Sirius used to call me that. It's not like we know each other anymore, though. Sirius and James have been closer than ever. I wonder how Remus deals with them or the other boy. Oh god, I'm thinking about him again. "Why were you fighting, though?" The way his scars make him look a werewolf is making me go crazy. "Please don't take offence, but you've been a bit crazy..." I stare at James. He thinks I'm crazy? "You need to accept that I'm a little out of mind because that's fine."
"But I don't like it, so I say be normal." I stare him directly in the eye, I'm tired of his behaviour at this point. "You're a waste of time." I say with confidence, I strut away. I know I'm going to take it all back later, but it felt good.
"Hi Barty, hi Evan, uhm.." The tall boy who was covered head to toe in scars was in our dorm. "Hi, person from the library.." He smiles at me. It's hard holding back a smile.
Why does remus have to be here? "My name is Remus Lupin. You're Regulus Black, right?" His voice is smooth and soft, wait, why am I thinking that? "Yes, nice to meet you, Remus." He smiles at me. Why am i so bloody nervous? Maybe he he put a spell on me.. Yeah, that's it.
'Me and Remus get along great. We both like to read, we both hate to swim, we both like to wear baggy jumpers, we both like to watch movies, fuck he's perfect.. but James, he's my true love. No one can change that.' James walks in, and I quickly put my diary under my pillow. "Finally, there you are, Reggie." I look up at him and tilt my head in confusion. "Is there anything you need, James?"
"Don't you understand Reggie? You're making everyone suspect something is going on with us, like we're dating."
"But we are James.."
"So? I don't want everyone the fucking school knowing."
"I'm sorry.."
"No, sorry isn't enough, stupid Black. This is a waste."
"Wait, please, I'll do anything.."
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The more I talk to Remus, the more I think about him. I wish I could wake up next to him instead of James.. Oh my god, Regulus, you've gone insane.. Oh well, all the best people are. I get up and dress normally, over sized shirts that have a random band on it. I didn't realise James woke up until he wrapped his arms around me.
"I don't like this outfit." God, I hate it when he fakes a deep voice.. "I wear this every day, though..."
"Put something else on then, or do you just not want to be together anymore..?"
"I'm sorry.."
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I hate the outfit James made me wear, I don't need to be reminded I'm a fucking black every minute, but I guess I do. Remus and I are going to a book shop, and when we enter the smell of new fresh books and the smell of polished wood hits me like an attack, it's gorgeous, it feels amazing, like I've been invited to heaven personally by god. "I always thought you were a bad person because of... you know.." Oh, "oh.."
I didn't mean to say it out loud. Maybe I did, but does that matter? No, exactly. "Sorry."
"It's fine Rem- Lupin.." He smiles and looks away, I don't know if I can fully trust him or not..
Me and Remus sat at a park, I rambled about James. God, do I really love James? No- no, why am I thinking that... James is wonderful. He's sweet and amazing, at least I think so. So why can't I stop rambling? Jesus.. "And it is like, I just don't like him anymore..' I went more quiet on the last part, realising what I'm saying, ''I hate Sirius so much. He told snape I'm a bloody werewolf." I was not expecting that, well, the werewolf I knew, but everything else was shocking. "Oh.. oh my..." He whispered. He didn't mean for that to come out, I hugged him. I don't know how to tell people 'I'm sorry', so that works.. I guess.
He smiles and lets out a small, quiet laugh, almost like a chuckle. "What's funny, Lupin..?"
"Why did you hug me?" Fuck his smile... its addictive... might need to call the police on this drug.. even if its just a human. "Because I'm bad at sorry's..."
"Fair enough, I'm bad at saying sorry too, but at least I'm not like James or him.."
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"Why are you here so late." James. James. James. James. God, I hate his voice right now. "Why does it matter?"
"Because if you can't handle a heart like mine, don't waste your time on me." Does he even have a heart? "I'm sorry.." No, I'm not. "I'll forgive you this time. But.." He walks over to me. Why am I such an idiot..? *THE MOST EPIC COOLEST PUNCH YOU CAN IMAGINE HERE* I fell on the floor. *AN ANOTHER REALLY EPIC COOL GYATT LEVEL PUNCH (please help I'm losing my sanity)* My vision gets blurred, I think I hit my head a bit too hard. Are the lights turned off, or have I just lost my consciousness. *Imagine James beating the shit out of Regulus here, please. I'm not good at describing that kind of stuff.* The last face I see before I go blank. Lupin, Remus bloody Lupin.
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*1105 words*
Merry Christmas, sorry if it wasn't good. I lost motivation mid way writing this, so erm yeah, if the song is still playing, enjoy.
