A Vampire's World

Guilt

I woke up early, well early for a vampire, six in the evening. I cuddle into Jake beside me, he came up about an hour after I fell asleep. He looks adorable sleeping, his hair messy, lips slightly parted.

I smile and crawl out of bed. I'm in desperate need of long, hot shower, I made my way to my bathroom.

After my shower, I dressed. A pair of hot pink skinny's, a long black off the shoulder top, my ugg boots and my Columbia jumper. Cosy and casual. My hair was scraped up in a bun. I looked over at Jake, he is still sleeping. I go down to the kitchen.

"Hey Lizzy." I chrip, cheerily.

"Ah Bella, I was just goin' to make you some breakfast. What would you like?" She smiles.

"Ummmmm, a fry up and a glass of blood. If you don't mind." I smile.

She starts preparing my food, I sit there staring at the counter. Until a plate with a big fry up is placed in front of me. I look up, Lizzy staring at me concerned.

"What's on your mind, Bella?" She asks, while filling a glass of blood for me.

I sigh, and launch into the story. I tell her how all of this trouble, was my fault. How Dimi is angry and sad because of me, bringing Alison into his life. How I got kidnapped over the picture in my house, in Pump Lane, and finally. How I will more than likely have to kill my best friends parents.

"Ariella, this is not your fault. These two witches, are very messed up! Insane, even. None of this is your fault sweetheart. Dimitri loves you like a daughter. You should have seen him when you were gone, he wouldn't sleep, eat or drink. He was nearly tearing his hair out with worry." She paused with a slight smile. "He wouldn't like it if he heard any of this."

"I know, Lizzy. But, it is my fault. Everything is, none of this would have happened, if I had died with my parents. I love Dimi, so much, like I loved my own parents. He reminds me of my dad, I don't want to lose him." I pause, taking a breath. Tears leaking out of my eyes. "I'm afraid he will leave, when more trouble comes." I sniffle. "I don't want to lose my only family, I have left." I cry.

"You will never lose me, Ari. Never, as long as I am on this earth, I will be with you." Dimi's smooth voice, reaches my ears.

I spin around, my face tear stained. How could he still love me? How could Jake even love me? All I do is cause pain, my exsistance is a pain for everyone.

I brought so much trouble. Guilt is literally, eating me from the inside out. I see out of the corner of my eye, Lizzy slipping through a door, to give us privacy.

"Ariella Nicole Costella." Dimi states, I flinch at my full name. "You listen to me, and you listen good." He saya, deadly serious. "Jake loves you, no matter what. You are his mate. No matter what trouble you bring, he will always be at you side." I smile a small smile. "Loren and Lily, they love you like their own. Blaine, Beth, Ana, Demi and Alann, they love you like a sister. They will always love you!" My smile widens a little. "As for me, nothing you can do will make me love you less. You are my only neice," He wipes my tears with his thumb. "My own flesh and blood. My beloved brothers daughter. My own daughter, I will always be with you, trouble included. It comes with the name, never ever ever forget, I will always be there for you and I'll love you even when I leave this earth!" He speaks with honesty and passion.

My smile widens even more, I run to him and launch myself into his awaiting arms. I snuggle into his chest. He smells like my dad, Lavender with a hint of an ocean smell. He is so much like dad, it comforted me.

"I love you Dimi, like I did with daddy. You will always have a place in my heart." I murmur into his chest.

"Same with me, sweetheart. Always, family stick together."

I smile,  we go into the livingroom, watched a few films, until I slipped into a deep sleep on his lap. My last thought was :

My heart and soul could finally be healing.