My Mafia Husband

3.

I was grooming in pain. I was so hungry that my stomach started to pain. "I'm feeling so hungry, i didn't even have my lunch" i said.

My mother just rolled her eyes. "What you want huh, you want something nice to eat, that's what you only want. Nothing else. You have nothing inside your head, what's the use we are spending such money on you and getting you educated, it's of no use. We should just get you married and send you off. Wait and watch let your father come home and then see the fun" she spat and walked away.

I rolled my eyes. Nobody cares. Even I don't care for myself. I got up and walked inside my bedroom locking my door. I sat down on the bed. I want to cry but I can't. I'm become so numb.

My head is paining so badly. I'm craving to eat something, but I can't do anything.

I went to my bathroom and took out my blade from the sink, and within a second i dragged it through across my skin looking down at my hand. I winched for a little but then bit my lip.

It didn't pain that much too. I looked down at my hands and saw so many scars and so many self-harm cuts.

Nobody has noticed them, i don't even want anyone to notice them too. I caressed it with my thumb. I washed it under the sink and put a band aid on it.

I pulled my sleeves down and walked out. I sighed and went outside my room. No one was there. Maybe she went outside. I checked the medicine box and took out a tablet for headache.

My weakness i have to take a tablet for this headache to go away. I pulled out the tablet.

I held it in my hand and walked to the kitchen. I took the glass of water and took the tablet gulping on the water.

I put it in the sink and walked back to my room. I sat down on my bed and covered myself. I took out my phone from the charging.

I began to scroll through Instagram then I switched to Wattpad. I don't feel like writing any new chapter. I sighed and put down my phone.

I tried to close my eyes and lay down in order to sleep. But it's not happening because of this headache. What is happening to me. Why can't I do something.

I want to cry but no tears left anymore I guess. I attempted once again to sleep but i couldn't rest. I saw the time and i decided to get up and make myself some coffee.

I walked to the kitchen with a hungry stomach. I took out the milk to boil. I took out the coffee powder and the sugar powder. Then i poured the milk into the cup i mixed it with the spoon.

I took the cup in my hand with nice grasp. I turned around and I saw my father. He was glaring with me with red eyes that could bulge out with the anger.

"What am I hearing y/n. You failed" he said stepped forward. I couldn't go backward. He came up to me and slapped so hard, that his nail dug into my skin.

My eyes became red and starterd to water. I stared at him. He took the coffee from my hand and threw it on my body. I whinced so loudly in pain as the hot coffee burned through my body.

"Waste wh***, you're of no use to us. Why did we bring forth you. Go and get out of my house you b!t!! I don't want to see you. Don't ever face me" he said coming forward and gripping my wrist digging his fingers in.

And going on slapping me. My eyes began to water more but i bit my inner cheeks to keep myself from crying. He threw me on the ground and broke the coffee cup.

He kicked me in my ribs and kicked my face "get up you b!!!h and get lost from here or else i won't spare you. I'll kill you" he said. I got up and walked away from there and to my bedroom.

God. I hugged myself tightly bringing my knees to my chest as i began to cry ever so lowly in order not to make any noise.

I hate my life so much. Why me. Why always me. What sin did I do to get all this. Every bad thing happens to me. God also doesn't show any mercy on me. Why can't he take me away from this stupid cruel world. I wish I had someone to hug me and let me pour out my tears. Someone who would really understand me. I don't have anyone. I hate this life.

After what felt like crying for hours and hours. I got cozy in my bed covering myself with two blankets i closed my eyes.