Don't leave me behind.

6. chemo - first round-.

Neither becky nor freen could sleep very much the night before becky started chemotherapy.
The pair tossed and turned all night until they eventually just talked until the sun rose for the day while freen was holding becky and put her head on becky arm and becky was hugging her, kissing her trying to avoid thinking about what will happen in the morning.

When it was finally time to leave for the day becky seemed off, but freen tried not to draw attention to it knowing becky would open up when she want that.

“Do you have everything before we leave?”

becky felt around in her black sweat pants pockets before nodding.
“they basically said, eat and drink and wear comfortable clothes so I guess we’re good.”
freen nodded as the pair got into the car and started driving toward the hospital.

“I think it’s weird that the doctor’s office, hospital and the treatment center are all in the same little parking lot”
freen tried her hardest to make small talk with a rather lost looking becky.

“Convenient though”
becky shrugged as she picked at the loose skin around her nails.

As the two girls got out of the car becky looked over at freen with sad eyes
“you know you don’t have to come right?”

freen looked a little caught off guard, slightly hurt as well.
“Why wouldn’t I want to come backy?”

“You’re going to have to see me get poked with an IV and poison pumped through me to get rid of another fucking poison”
becky bit back, obviously bitter over the situation.

freen walked over to becky and brushed her short black hair out of her face and placed a soft kiss on her lips, spit dribbling away as they separated.

“I love you”
freen spoke sweetly. becky nodded with smile faded immediately then the two made their way to the treatment center doors.

becky signed himself in as freen sat down and flipped through a magazine, trying her hardest to hide her anxiety about the entire situation.

becky was sitting quietly trying to comprehend the whole situation and what she was feeling, when her name was called, she was already being ushered down the hall into a small private room.

Déjà vu ensued and becky remembered how just days ago she was sitting in a small room being told she had cancer... She was sitting in that small room, which was a bit cold, waiting for the treatment session to begin but all she felt was a desire to leave that building and spend the rest of her time hugging her girlfriend and spending moments with freen that would always remind freen that she love her more than anything/anyone else in her life.

But that desire faded when she saw her lover looking at her with worried, tearful eyes.
At that moment, becky realized that she had to fight if she wanted to be with that woman...running away would be another stupid decision that would hurt the woman she love.

becky bit back the lump in her throat and tried to make small talk with freen to calm her down.

becky looked over at freen and smirked
" Nice ass sarocha, your skirt is not short but the terrain is clear"

freen knew becky was trying to make light of the situation, so she just rolled with it.

"I'm trying to seduce my girlfriend, and you think my ass just NICE!"

"How about we lock the room door so I can tell you how beautiful your ass is? ... and your puss..."

"rebecca, behave"
freen let out a fake laugh.

All becky could think about was how different her life was going to be.
she was worried freen will be affected negatively or maybe wouldn’t be able to handle it, she had heard of people’s spouses and livers not being able to handle the diagnosis and leaving them.
On one hand, Becky wanted to protect Freen and free her from what was coming, she didn't want to see freen suffer because of her, but on the other hand the last thing becky wanted was to be sick and alone.
becky was in the middle of her thought when two people she had never seen before walked into the room.

The first person spoke “Hello Ms. Armstrong, I’m Doctor rose, sorry that we have to meet under these circumstances”
the woman shook hands with becky and continued to speak.
“I’m your medical oncologist. I’ll be working with a team of professionals here to make sure we develop a good treatment plan for you.”

freen decided this was a good time to insert herself into the conversation becky rose lady looks like didn't want to let go of becky hand

“Hello, I’m freen. becky girlfriend ” freen shook hands with the doctor quickly before continuing to speak

"are you in charge of his chemotherapy and how much and when it’s administered?”

becky raised a brow
“someone did their research” she thought to herself.

Dr. Rose seemed to be pleased with freen as she answered her question without missing a beat,
“that is correct, very nice to meet you. Again, wish it was different circumstances but we will get your girlfriend all taken care of.”

freen smiled solemnly as she looked down at the floor.

“And I am Nita, I’ll be your oncology nurse, I’ll be giving you the chemotherapy as well as helping you manage any side effects and answer any of your questions”
she shook both becky and freen hands before flashing a warm smile.
becky liked her already, she seemed to know her stuff, and she needed someone confident in their job.

Doctor Rose left the room as Nurse Nita checked becky blood pressure.
“Okay, after your blood pressure I need to check your pulse, temperature and breathing alright?”

“Alright”
was all becky responded, trying his best to be comfortable with her personal space being invaded, she needed to get used to that.

After that was over, becky stepped on the scale and had her height and weight taken as well.

“Good, just have a seat and I’ll be right with you”
Nita bubbly spoke before leaving the room.

“She’s pretty cheery for someone who probably witnesses death all day”
becky spoke as soon as Nita was out of sight.

“BECKY ”
freen scolded seeming shocked at what came out of becky mouth.

becky shrugged before Nita appeared back into the room.

“Looks like you’re ready to go, Doctor Rose gave me the OK, are you alright if we start?”
becky nodded as she tried not to think about what was about to happen,
before she knew it she looked down and saw a freckled handed tightly squeezing his.

freen was already at her side and ready to go, just as becky expected.
she was feeling worried and sad because freen will see what is coming but at the same time she was need her girlfriend to be around.

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