Tell me (boyxboy yullen) DISCONTINUED

The start of the End

     (Allen POV 「again」)

      Smooth silk sheets rubbed against my skin as I woke up from my deep sleep. Bringing up my 'normal' hand to the white clusterfuck of a bedhead. 'Not only am I a mess but so is my hair...' I thought to myself. 'Wow I'm depressing...'

      Getting out of the bed, I looked down to realize I had fallen asleep in my clothes. 'Disgusting.'
Walking to the bathroom in my room, I closed the door behind me, hearing a faint 'click.' Stripping out of my dirty clothes, I turned on the water, remembering that cold water actually raised your metabolism and helped you lose weight, so I left the knob on cold. I had learned that when Lavi was blabbing on about some book he had found about random facts.

Stepping into the shower, the cold water felt like ice. 'Duh, its cold water.' Grabbing a bar of soap, I started scrubbing my body. My legs (i hated the way my thighs looked), stomach, chest, and finally, my arms. I looked down at my innocence. The baby blue soap was so visible in contrast to the vermillion arm of mine. I started scrubbing my arm again, this time faster.

      "Maybe if i scrub hard enough it'll wash away..."
'Course it fucking won't, you dope!'

      I grabbed the shampoo, and squirted some into my right hand, and started scrubbing the white tufts of my hair. I didn't use my left hand because the fingernails were to long and I always ended up scratching my head, sometimes even making me bleed.
I had tried cutting my fingernails on my innocence one time, but it would even leave a dent! That, and it hurt like a bitch.

      I was in the shower for about 30 minutes, before I finally got out. Taking a white fluffy towel, I rubbed my hair with it then wrapped it around my waist. 'My waist is so big...'
Frowning to myself, I walked out the bathroom, to afraid to even look in the mirror, and took a new pair of the black order uniform. I had three. Gotta' keep precautions!

      I was contemplating wether or not to go to the cafeteria, but it would probably be suspicious if I didn't go. 'I'll just tell Lavi and Lenalee I woke up early and ate then'. Grabbing my pair of gloves and slipping them on, I opened my door and walked into the hallway.

      By the time I had gotten to the cafeteria, Kanda was already there. Long fingers holding up chopsticks as he daintily ate his soba. 'I always look like a pig when I eat...'

      Walking up to the table, i sat down, plastering on a fake smile. If you have on a smile, even if its fake, everyone will assume you're ok, "hey guys!"

      "Aren't you gonna' eat, allen?" Lavi asked, a noodle hanging from his mouth.

      "I ate earlier, ive been waking up real early lately..." I replied. Lenalee and Lavi nodded and smiled at each other, while kanda just glanced at me and continued eating.

      'It'll just take time, allen, you just gotta wait.'

4 days later

I was in my bathroom, standing on the scale. I HAD LOST 3 POUNDS!!! I mean, its not that much but at least it's something. I didnt eat anything except for yesterday during breakfast. I had just gotten so hungry that I ate a whole stack if mitarashi dango. I felt so disgusted with myself. Ive also managed to avoid lunch and supper.
'You could have lost more' the voice in the back of my head was back. 'You can do better'.

      "I know! I'll run in the afternoon to burn off calories!" I said to myself, before I slipped of the scale, stopping to look in the mirror. It was still cracked. I smiled, and even though my eyes were dead, the mask  i'd put on was enough to fool. After a while, I left the bathroom, and went into bed, and fell into a deep, dreamless sleep.

Authors note: second chappie is finally done. Im a huge procrastinator... BUT i will try and update soon! (That probably means a couple of weeks... T: i know, i'm such an ass twink.  ) kinda having writers block tho.....
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