GIRLHOOD, GODHOOD / lee fletcher

one / angry girl

anastasia.

THE SILENCE WAS DEAFENING ----- WHICH WAS AN IRONIC THING. silence means when there is a complete absence of any sound. but right now, it felt like the silence was growing louder and louder by each passing second. the ringing in the ears grew louder and then the pumping of her blood was all she could hear as long as sharp breaths.

anastasia was an angry girl by nature. she solved things with her fists and teeth, instead of her words. she loved to fight. in the small cramped apartment where she lived with her mother, she had a boxing bag hanging in the middle of her room. there wasn't really space for it but she needed to keep her fighting skills sharp, sharp like her teeth. sharp like the nails she dug into the squishy flesh of the bullies at goode high school.
          and she could fight without consequences, her best friend's dad worked on the school administration board. which meant that no matter what anastasia did, she'd always have Mr Huxley - Zhao to make sure she didn't get in too much trouble. it was probably unfair that she abused her position as the best friend of Mr huxley's daughter but whatever.

she was glad she could because she had never messed up so much than in this moment.
          for the record of the jury, it was absolutely not anastasia fault. she was provoked.

it started with that annoying boy that sat behind her in history ----- the one that always poked her in the back with a pencil or would throw little balls of paper that had random notes on them or would push her out of the way in the hallway. he did alot of other stuff too, he was a bully, in anastasia's opinion. but when she tried to report him, she got told he probably just had a crush on her.

yuck.

there was only so much a girl with pent up anger inside of her could take before the anger exploded into a paroxysm of rage ----- an eruption of fists, teeth, headbutting and shouting. anastasia was an angry girl, an angry girl that didnt just use her knuckles to fight. ( if she could use a body part as a weapon, she would use it as a weapon )

it started when jayden shoved lian down the stairs between maths and PE. luckily, lian didn't fall since anastasia and harmony caught her. anastasia felt a tiny bit of her amygdala ( the part of your brain that's mostly associated with anger ----- anastasia was a science girl ) snap. but it was only a bit of anger so she swallowed it back down and headed to PE.

the trio of girls talked about how unfair it was to do PE out in the heat, how their PE teacher was the worst teacher ever and they gossiped about some people. they had sour moods from the fact that their teacher confiscated their necklaces ( seriously? it's a necklace, it's not going to magically wrap around their necks to form a noose and kill them in the middle of netball ). and their moods got much worse when they found out they were doing PE with the boys.