Joy and Hope

8 painted smile

He reaches over and wraps you in the duvet. A smile full of sunshine, he kisses your forehead. "You said that you're better after you've slept."

What just happened! Did you really think he was going to sleep with you?, wow you really are fucked up and proper delusional.  He's still looking at you but this time he's wearing a soft smile and there's sweetness in his eyes. He leaves the room but returns with a bottle of water and two small bottles of wine and a blanket.

Putting the drinks in the middle of the bed he starts sorting the blanket around his shoulders and tucking it in at his feet. He's now sitting on the bottom of the mattress. "If your not ready to sleep, could I have the plot to season 1 of the kdrama, also know as 'its my life' starring you" he's serious. "Ah fuck it, why not" you reply. Sitting up you take the bottle of wine. "What, no glasses, here I thought you were classy" you both laugh. So you start talking.

"After I worked with the group in northern Europe I went back to Germany. I was working for a company with ties to America. In reality, all day I would be like an English teacher, correcting grammar and spelling mistakes in emails. Kind of boring. I had a few friends and we would go out to dinner and dancing. I took on a tutoring post for one of the university's. That's when I met ass face". You take a sip of wine from the bottle. It's not the best wine but it's red and room temp and you can feel it seep into your blood almost instantly.

Taking a deep breath you continue.

"We hung out for a while and then started dating. He came from a good family, his dad owned a business and his mum was in some sort of finance. By the time April arrived you had visited Ilsan and met his sister. DongJin was happy and so where you. By the end of the university year the two of you were in deep. You return to Ilsan with him for Chuseok. This is when you meet his parents. You were worried they wouldn't accept you since your not Korean, Korean decent or Asian. That was silly, they loved you and were happy to call you daughter.

DongJin makes an announcement that in the spring, He's going to enlist and complete his time in military earlier than planned. This will help his fathers company, where he's been working since completing his year overseas" another sip of wine. Hoseok is listening with open ears. It's not that you want to go into detail about your sex life but it's part of the reason your not that sad that your relationship is over. "Life with DongJin was good. With the money i was earning and my savings I bought an apartment and made it cosy. While DongJin was away I could work as much as I wanted and use the money to make the apartment ours". You simply say "maybe he felt emasculated that I could provide for us and he couldn't. Maybe that's why he couldn't push the right buttons" stealing so glance at Hoseok, he smiles and let's you continue.

"That's the back story, how you enjoying it so far, do you think you will add this kdrama to your watch list?" You say this in your best 'automated voice over tone'

Hoseok, has finished his wine and reaches over for yours. "Yeah I think so, seems like the shits about to hit the fan though. Wait." He gets up and returns with the miniatures and some snacks from the minibar, dumping them all on the space between you. You didn't notice but he's closer to you now.

"OK, the plot twist and season finale" You lean over and take a whisky bottle. Crack It open and down it. "Well, this is when it gets exciting. I'm in Japan right. I know I have this contract coming up" you gesture between you two. "So I head to the apartment in Hongdae I've just bought some nice rugs and wanna put them in place. Anyway. I get to the apartment, there's lights on but it's not them that has me intrigued, it's the Tux and gift boxes in my living area.

There's no sound in my apartment but the lights are also in the the hall and bedroom. So, curiosity spiked I walk through to find my partner in bed, he's not meant to be here. He's still in service. I'm so confused that I don't see it straight away. He's holding something. Its like a big white blanket. That's when I saw the intricate details of the lace and gems. It was a wedding gown. At first I thought, wait is this his way of proposing, he's bought me a dress. But then it moved. He had already filled the gown with another woman.