"Know what?" I asked playing dumb. "Oh come on Ivy don't bullshit me how shallow do you really think i am" she said raising her voice "okay, okay I'm sorry" I said tears dripping down. "No, no Ivy baby i'm sorry I didn't mean to raise my voice, it's okay sweetie your safe" she said softly running fingers gently through my hair as my head rested on her shoulder.
"I'm sorry" i chocked out. "No bub" she rocked me back and forth "you know i understand better than anyone right?" She asked to which i nodded my head. "So you need to trust me" she planted a kiss on my crown. "Okay" i breathed out.
"First of all were going to go home" she paused "then you can take a bath while i make dinner and then your gonna eat at least half of it and don't think you can just slip away to the bathroom again ill be watching you"
"No please Taylor no" i cried "i can't get fat no" i sobbed "please NO." "Ivy sweetie this isn't a compromise this is what's going to happen for me to agree not to tell your mom" she put the car in drive "and second of all baby your beautiful and your definitely not fat baby your all bones look at yourself this isn't healthy" "Taylor i don't want to loose Gracie please shes all i have and shes not gonna love a fat hag" i cried "Ivy your not fat and even if you were if Gracie really loves you that wouldn't change that."
When i got home i went up to my bathroom to get ready. But then i finally saw it. In my reflection i wasn't fat anymore. I just looked sick. What the fuck have i done.
Getting in the bath i began to feel like a person. I woke up to the feeling of hunger in my belly but still i had no appetite.
"Ivy can i come in?" Taylor asked with a polite knock. "Yeah" i rasped out. "Soo options chicken nuggets" she gestured to the first box, "orrrr pizza, your pick" she smiled. "I guess chicken nuggets" I shrugged. "Okay they'll be done in maybe a half hour so try to wrap this up soon" she said walking back out.
I pulled up the drain and watched all the water flow out. I really didn't want to eat. Id gone so long following calorie deficits I didn't think i could do it.
I pulled on a pair of sweats and a hoodie, these were the only things i had that still fit.
I took my seat at the table next to taylor. "Wah lah" she said placing the platter in front of me. The contents included mac and cheese, nuggets, green beans, and black berries.
I decided to start with the green beans. It was an awkward amount of time between the green bean entering my mouth and the actual chewing but even longer between the swallowing. Who knew it could be this hard.
"Ivy sweetie I'm so proud of you, i know how hard this is" she said rubbing my back. "Trust me Ive been exactly where you are"
"How about a gilmore girls marathon?" I suggested. "Yeah that sounds good bub" Taylor said kissing the top of my head.
Tay and i snuggled up on her couch watching our show. Rory and Lorelei are literally us.
"You know i love you more than anyone else right, and no man could ever replace you, your literally my first daughter" Taylor asked. "of course" i replied "your literally the best person i know."
"Have you talked to Jenna" taylor questioned. "no i haven't told anyone" I admitted. "Well you can start with Jenna then you should tell Gracie."
"Do i have to?" I asked "yes ivy" taylor replied "but i can manage it on my own" i plead "but you don't have to," she begged "you don't have to go it alone."
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I KNOW THE END - Gracie Abrams
Fanfiction"I turned around there was nothing there The billboard said, the end is here" Ivy Johnson grew up the daughter of Cora Johnson an Actress who happened to be close friends with Taylor Swift. Taylor being Ivys godmother is willing to help her w...
