love with manipulation

Part 5

"Grand celebration day"

"Y/n"

Today is the day when I will start my plan and my life's- oops my bad "my death's" countdown starts. For better understanding let's take it as "D-Day 1". kim namjoon is standing right infront of me and the thing I am thinking about is not my death but "Kim namjoon" but their doesn't seems much difference between them other than some alphabets...I have to make him desire for me which obviously I don't know!? How!? But I have to...

He's searching for something particular making his eyebrows frown as usual making him sad which I can't understand obviously why!? but having a unexpected desire to give him that particular thing he's searching for is occurring inside me without even my Knowing just because he's sad just like a kid who didn't got his favourite sweet...

I am hiding in darkness far away from everyone's eyes "curious" to know about his thoughts and the thing. He's searching for but can I know!? Or give him that thing!? He's like a mystery in which I seems to get lost in just like a maze rather than solving it...

But I can't stand here forever. I have to make him feel the need to talk to me but will he!? Thinking the same thing again and again... I walked behind him through a busy crowd and surprisingly he noticed me!!! which made me forced to think... How!? How he finds me each and every time. Is it coincidence!? But obviously he only saw my back...

Oops I am getting forgetful. I was so lost in describing my curiosity that I forgot to tell you I work in Kim company. My first step to get closer to him. Here comes employees of Kim company and to get invited in this party I have to work as an accountant which was extremely boring.

The only thing which can made me do it forever is secretly observing my curiosity which obviously I did from a dark corner from where he can't find me but surprisingly he knows everytime he even tried to search for me. I watched him which made me forced to think...

"Am I a secret treasure to which he automatically gets attracted to" or he have some detector which goes beep beep whenever I am near him. Which obviously I can't understand!? How!?

But little did she know...

"Kim namjoon"

I am here in grand celebration ceremony of my company standing with some investors including my little brother but as usual all I can think about is her... about "my moon".

But something is different in me. From last few days I can feel her near me all the time. Am I getting mad!? Am I hallucinating!? Am I imagining things!? I don't know!? But I am sure I can feel her near me not near extremely close...

Here also I can feel her. Why!? How!? Don't know!? Again attempting a unsuccessful attempt to search around the crowd for her but obviously she was no where to be seen maybe only my eyes can't see her because my heart obviously can feel and see her...

I saw her that day, seeing her eternal eyes felt heaven to me but the thing I am still curious about is "her scars" are they still their!? Do they hurt!? Did she overcome her pain!? Scars associates with pain and suffering along with strong will power to overcome the pain...

But did she overcome them!? It's been 10 years and I still like my 18 year old self want to know about her scars. Her scars were the one which attracted me first probably the most that even after seeing her eternal eyes... I keep wanting to know about her scars. But can I!?