𝘪𝘯 𝘳𝘦𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵 જ⁀➴๋࣭ ⭑๋࣭ ⭑

03

#003

i gaze into you,
the abyss beyond your irises.
full of chaos,
and destruction.
you're meant to leave pain in your wake.

but for a split second,
i saw my future.
with you,
happiness.
you were everything
i could have asked for.

i took a chance-
i grabbed your hand,
and together we leapt into
the endless unknown.
but we were together.

but as we tumbled further,
you let me go.
and suddenly,
i was alone in the chaos,
and destruction,
as you disappeared into the abyss.

#003a- afterword

i just wanna apologise, i dont think this is any good at all... i just woke up and needed to write (a compulsion to create). i promise i'll give better works but rn im running on dry.

i wrote this while thinking of my ex best friend, who was quite literally someone i considered to be the other half of my soul. from the start, there were red flags. she was unfiltered, in the way that she would make all sorts of uncalled for comments about others and pass it off as a joke. but i cared too much about her to even be off put. even though i had an inkling that she might not be the best influence on me, i stayed. no matter what we went through, i was fine as long as we were together. that's pretty tragic, but that's love i guess.

then one day, as the poem might indicate, she suddenly grew cold. and all the horrible things i was experiencing were suddenly overwhelming. i think this poem is kind of a lesson, to follow your gut and to know that sometimes you cant blindly follow someone- not even your own soulmate.