Letters To My Past Lover

He Was The Rise And Fall Of Me

Her POV
When I was young my mom told me that life was the easiest thing that could be taken away, so never take it for granted. At the time I didn't realize she was slowly preparing me for her death. I was 10 when my mom died of stage 4 breast cancer, leaving me, my dad, and my 6 year old  sister. Nothing made sense after she died, she was my favorite person, and just like that she was gone. My dad was clearly in over his head with two girls but I promised my mom I would help him, so I did. Me, my dad and sister were all a team and for the past 9 years, we have managed to rebuild our lives together.

It was my mom's dream to attend college but due to my grandma's financial struggles, she couldn't. She always told me she wanted me to go to college and do great things. As a kid, I wasn't sure I wanted to go to college but after she died my decision became clear. I had to go, so I could do all the things she never got to do.

I met my best friend Janelle aka Nellie A year after my mom's death, she had just moved to Oakland, CA from Chicago. She was all alone and so was I, so we bonded through loneliness. We instantly became close friends and the rest is history. We met Mason freshman year of high school, Nellie thinks he has a crush on me because of how close we are but I'm not convinced. Freshman year is also when I met him

Theo James

He was a stereotypical bad boy, he has brown fluffy hair with dark brown narrow eyes. He was the boy that every girl wanted and every boy wanted to be. He always has his best friend Liam and His other friend Jacob by his side. They stayed to themselves but everyone knew them. My friend Mason played soccer with them so me and Theo were in the same circle for a while. He didn't speak to me at first but one day before school he grabbed me by my arm and said "Iyanna I need your help", his eyes were so intense and intoxicating that I couldn't resist. He had gotten the laces on his cleats tangled together and couldn't undo them . I was shocked he even knew my name, even though we were around each other a lot, we didn't speak.

After I helped him with his laces the rest was history.

We talked every day and night for 2 years. But it wasn't until senior year that we became more than friends. At the beginning of the senior year, there was a summer sunrise to welcome the new seniors. Me and Theo had talked about going together. That was our "hard launch". Everybody was supportive of us and I was just as happy as I was when my mom was alive. I had my best friends, boyfriend, and family. My life was perfect.

Until it wasn't

The day of prom was normal, everything was going great. Theo had asked me to prom the week before, and we decided to wear gold. We texted that morning to confirm the limo and he told me he was getting a haircut. So I took a nap and I woke I checked my phone and my heart shattered. Nellie had texted me that Theo's mom was in critical condition after her car crash. I immediately called Theo but he didn't answer, I called 15 times, and still no answer. I called Henry, Liam and Jacob. They didn't answer either. I didn't know what to do, so I just started getting ready for prom. As I was putting on my dress I got a notification, it was a text from Theo. The first line of the text was my name which was unusual and instantly made me feel uneasy.

The Text
Iyanna, You have been the light I needed for a long time and meeting you was the best moment of my life. You are my forever person and it breaks my heart to say this but we have to break up. I can't be the man you deserve rn. My mom is dead and it's all my fault. I can't be your boyfriend rn, I can't be anyone's anything rn. I'm sorry and I love you forever and always.

My heart breaks reading his text, I immediately try to call but it gives me a voice operator, and when I try to text him the messages turn green. I can feel the tears flowing and I can't make them stop. My chest starts to feel heavy and I fall to the floor. Izzie runs in and comforts me. I couldn't breathe or move, I was frozen in that moment. I remember feeling empty and broken. It reminded me of how I felt when my mom died. Theo James was the rise and fall of my life

He was the rise and fall of me

I never saw him again....I never wanted to see him again. As far as I'm concerned Theo James died the day he sent that text.

He's dead to me

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