The Protector [ENGLISH]

➷ 5

BELINA

It's been exactly two weeks since I last saw Adrien.

The hardest thing about these two weeks was that the days and nights dragged on in the corridors of my dark thoughts. Sleeping became a torture for me, my body became weak from fatigue, and I became a bit dull. Even though my aunt tried to cheer me up, it was no use.

I ate as much as my stomach allowed, took care of our small garden, fed our chickens, crocheted lace, and went to the town.

I just couldn't come across him.

Still, I couldn't stop trying.

I was very angry at myself for allowing him to affect me so much, but my heart did not listen to me because it no longer belonged to me, but to this stranger.

I somehow always managed to survive, but the sun that warmed me seemed to no longer exist.

My heart, which had been beating with expectations until a few weeks ago, was now being crushed by the weight of rejection. This sadness surrounded me like a shadow cloak, and it seemed to me that even the vibrant shades of the sky had lost their brightness under this shadow.

These storm-like feelings inside me; I was oscillating between disappointment, sadness, and a little anger at myself.

Every day, this confusion was getting heavier and the fresh air that once blew with the sweet scent of flowers and my mind at ease was now blowing bittersweet.

It was as if the unforgettable pains in my past and all the scabbed wounds in my heart had come to the light again.

Still, I continued to fight with all my might in the midst of this storm. That's all I knew.

Aunt Talina said love could hurt like that, but she made sure I wouldn't feel this sad all the time.

Our neighbors, who were used to seeing us together, were asking her about Adrien, I could hear it from afar. Even if she didn't tell much, I understood.
Even though she didn't show it to me, my aunt was also upset about this situation. She also loved Adrien very much, and in the blink of an eye, her heart warmed up to him too.

Just a few weeks ago, everything was almost fine, but now this uncertainty was terrible. But I was the one who made a mistake. How could I have made such a mistake when life had taken away everyone I loved?

Belina Darens.

I was that babel who lost everything she had.

What had I really done to make the Almighty Three so angry?

Aunt Talina said I shouldn't rebel. The Almighty Three would write destiny what was most auspicious. Everything in life had a reason. Even if I didn't know it at the time, it had.

At least that's what she said. How faithful Talina was, she found peace with her faith.

I knew how worn out I was when I rebelled against what I had lost in my past, and I understood the difference. I wanted to choose her peaceful path, but I could never feel gratitude like my aunt.

In the evening two days before the wedding, when Aunt Talina felt a little unwell, I decided to go to the city alone, without her knowledge, to buy some medicinal herbs. Autumn was very cool in the mountains, Talina must have caught a cold. If I made herbal tea from a nice mixture, she would recover immediately. In the short time we spent with my father, I learned something by watching him. I knew the herbs. I also knew who was selling what in the market. While I was doing my shopping, I was always looking around. When I asked the marketers about him, they said they hadn't seen him for a while and maybe he had left Riviena.