CRAVE:THE BEGINNING✅

D-10 Mask

[Next Morning]
I didn't dream of anything lastnight. If I did I must have forgotten. All I remember is black. No color, no sound...Just black. Just like the wound on my heart, deep, dark; Black. It goes on for an infinity with no hope of healing. Its perminate unless maybe somewhere, somewhere, someone can heal this wound.
I wonder.
Opening my eyes this morning I was blinded by the suns' light. I closed my eyes and blinked until my eyes became familiar with the light. I yawned/stretched. Mid stretch I bumbed something then shriveled up and gasped.
Taehyung was laying right beside me. I ended up kicking him off the bed by accident. He landed on the floor hard with nothing to break his fall. "WTF" he spat as he woke up. "Why'd you kick me off!?"he hissed as he adjusted his eyes to the light while he peeked up at me. I gave him a glare. "Why were you laying next to me!?" I spat.
"Okay 1.) You were crying in your sleep and talking up a storm okay? And 2.) You didn't have to kick me out of the bed. Geesh" Taehyung spat.
I Gave him a confused look. "Okay but that doesn't explain why you were on the bed. " I hissed.
"You asked me to in your sleep !After that you shut up so stop complaining."Taehyung spat. I pointed to my self. "Me!?" "I'm pretty sure that's what I said. Plus I wouldn't do anything without reasoning. " he hissed.

[School]

I feel like everyone is looking at me...giving me dirty looks. I know its my own self conscious but its how I feel. I feel like they know everything that happened between Hoseok and I.
At my locker I feel the burns from all the glares I receive. In class its no different.
I worry hoseok is or might have said something about us. Maybe that's the cause of all of these glares I'm receiving today. I'm contemplating whether or not I should skip the student council meet today. If I stay if the bathroom, does that count as a skip? ..I can lie about beging sick.

[Math]

The class room is silent and cold.
We begin to take our test. Surprisingly hoseok hasn't arrived yet. He must have skipped. If its not me it had to be him I guess. I found my self constantly peeking at his desk to see if he came but was always let down with disappointment. Even the slighest movement gave me the illusion of hoseok sitting by my side, I was only led to false hope and a empty desk.
In walked a familiar stranger dressed in nothing but black. A long sleave shirt with sweat pants, His hair black, just past his eyebrows. He also carried a black sports bag. He handed the teacher a note and took a seat next to me in hoseok desk.
That stranger was hoseok. He changed completely into a new man. Into something I'm now afraid of.
Biting on the tip of my pen I would peek at this new stranger. "Hoseok" or if that's even his name. I would examine him and be reminded of candy. How good it tastes even though its bad for you. Just like how he's bad for me.. Hoseok caught me staring a few times and gave me an evil glare. What is this? Why do I suddenly feel attacked ? I know it wasn't his intention to turn me on but it did. Hoseok, is now candy...and now till always,will forever be candy. Too much and it could possibly kill me. I'm like on a sugar rush now.
Each glare he gave me only excited me more. I sit at my desk on a sugar high, peeking up only to see what used to be mine. "Teach.." Hoseok raised his hand. He asked the teacher for a seat change and was welcomed to the front of the class from. I now am alone with the only peek of his sneaker and the reality of me actually being alone.
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After I turned in my test I rested my head on my desk and began to think about what happened between Hoseok and I. I tried to come up with all the reasons why he would break up with me but I was left with none. I know hoseok would never use me. Its not him. Why am I the only one ignorant of the truth ? When can I be set free?
With out realizing, a tear had just fallen and landed onto my desk. I felt a hand upon my head. I lifted only to see the sight of Taehyung looking down at me. "Don't do that hear. I don't need you to get embareassed. So go to the bathroom araso?" He whispered.
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A few minutes before the SC meet was to begin. I stood before the door contemplating with my self whether I should skip the meet or not. Hoseok is obviously through with me, would it even matter if I showed up? Maybe I should drop the team to give us both a place at ease. I turned my back to the door, whipped out my phone and dialed Taehyungs number. My phones was then snatched from my hand and the call was cancelled.
"Where were you about to go?"
I looked up only to see Hoseok glaring down at me. Flustered, I reached for my phone but each time I did hoseok only went higher. I reached again and he lifted my phone higher. What is this....what does he take me for ? I thought we broke up..why does he keep coming back into my sight. "Jung hoseok give it back! " I spat only to be mocked in the face once again with another lift of my phone. I began to feel frustrated and annoyed. I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. I just wanted to runaway. Away from my feelings that is. I feel as though this is his way of toturing me. Knowing I still have feelings for him must be a boost to breaking me down. I stopped reaching for my phone and looked hoseok in his eyes as the tears continued to build just wiggling on the edges on my eyes.
"why.." I wispered. Hoseok cornered me against the wall. A arm by each side of my head, he stared into my eyes. "Look, no one in that room knows what's going on between us. So cut the shit and atleast act normal. I don't need crap from my mom's mouth. " he said in a cocky tone. "Then why are doing this to me? Why must you make me feel useless and, How come you're the only one who can feel ok about this..what about me?...when can I feel fine. Its not fair. We broke up so why must you always appear infront of me?(illusions, thoughts) It hurts..this is torture." I cried.
The urge to cry on his chest is only killing me. Now I have to hold myself back from old habbits. Hoseok wiped my tears with his thumbs and for a second a warm vibe game from him. But that slowly faded as his face was leaning in towards mine. Slowly, our noses almost touching. I could feel his body heat and I began to close my eyes for what I was hoping for, even if it was the last to happen. "What are you doing?" A devilish voiced came from behind hoseok. That second of peace was shredded, erased; gone like it never was going to happen. Hoseok handed me my phone and glared at me again. "Nothing. I was just giving her phone back." Hoseok spat.
The devil her self Mrs.Jung, hissed like a snake then looked me in the eyes. "oh, why is she crying then?" She spat. "Because she couldn't find her phone." he snapped back. "Hurry up before your late"Mrs.Jung scoffed as she glared once more.
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Through the whole meet, Mrs.Jung was sending mini death threats through her eyes. She was pure evil. "(Y/N) are you crying again ? Are you okay?" She asked me. I gave her a quick smile as I wiped my tears. "Actually I'm not feeling well. I'm going to the nurse." I chimed. The answer has always been in my face.
I went to my car to cool down for a while. Few minutes later the passenger door opened and Taehyung slid in. "I saw you storm out. Everything ok?" He asked me.
I told him I was fine as I gave him a deep sigh. My eyes red from crying I tries to avoid eye contact with Taehyung.
"Did he so something to you!?" Taehyung asked me. I shook my head no before hesitantly turning towards him.
Me: I'm ...I'm just really frustrated.

T: Why? I mean I understand but-

Me: No! I mean idk..Sometimes
I want to squish his head...then sometimes I want to hug him. I can't deal with him (hoseok). I don't know of he thinks of this as a joke or what but,
Its hurting me. Just a moment ago he told me to "act as if nothing happened and for me to stop crying." What does that mean?
Does he want me to act like we never broke up? HOW !? WE ARE BROKEN UP. It's so confusing.

T: well..if the break up he put out is real then maybe its his way of getting at you. A trigger to make you cry. He wants to see you suffer around him when he knows you can. Its all a game maybe ?

T: Its going to be hard but you need to be tough. Be happy you won't get nagged anymore by hoseok.

T: If your still bothered, maybe you need to make the point and break it off.

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I thought I could make what Taehyung said a reality but it was only a thought. You'd think that because you broke up with someone on bad terms you'd leave each other alone but that's not my case. Hoseok changed. He became more aggressive and began to threaten me with my role In Sc.

[Weeks later]

Hoseok began to nag me about my grades even though I had honor roll, he even teased me when I was upset. Reality was, he was the one responsible for me being upset. I couldn't take it anymore. Hoseok would abuse me with work and wonder why I'm tired or depressed. I wasn't really happy like I used to be. It became harder to find a smile on my face.
Hoseok didn't bother to acknowledge the fact that I'm human too and have feelings of my own. Stacks of papers to print and copy and on top of that I'm left with hall duty. Therefore I have little time to get things done.
Whenever I do skip(class), its because I try to get a break from him(Hoseok).
He's driving me to the point where I'm going to snap and say things I shouldn't say or do. Because of the work Hoseok has givin me, I havent been able to see or spend time with my good friend Taehyung. I'm either too tired or always busy. I miss Taehyung. Taehyung is the only one who listens to me when I need him.