2 MONTHS LATER
MYRA POV
it's been 6 months since i "moved in" with them and honestly my life hasn't changed. I have been feeling really bad though. i think it's because i'm over working myself. i work a actual job and I still b selling drugs. i've had stomach cramps, throwing up every morning, shortness in breath nd i've been feeling very lazy lately. i searched up symptoms nd it say pregnancy but i'm just going to take a test later because i don't believe it. i haven't willingly had sex ever and ain't no way in hell God is real but will put a forced baby in me. The boys just think i'm a little sicc so i been on bed rest for 3 days now but i'm going to get a test tomorrow. i've been working so hard i got my own car already and i've been looking at apartments for my own. i still don't talk and me nd D was talkin for a li while but then some girl "came to me as a women" about him nd i jus left him alone. we got 2 out bulls now drama and draco they both puppies. drama is black w a white spot nd draco is all black.
"uu hungry" chris asked as he came into the room i was in w some panda express and another bag in his hand. i shook my head no
"girl ion give no fucc uu still need to eat here and give me to keys so i can put yo shi in the garage" he said and i passed him the keys. chris is really the only one that still tries to ttm nd ionk y i don't talk. Ever since they took me to my birth parents jamal been acting weird. he was trying at first but then he totally forgot about me. nd i honestly don't care.
i opened the food to see what he got me nd smiled. it's wha i always get from there the plate w the half half's it b so good. i started to eat a little but then i started to feel my food coming up. i ran to the toilet and threw everything up. i finished throwing up flushed it wiped the seat off then i brushed my teeth going back into the room and throwing some clothes on. i grabbed everything i needed and put the food in the fridge going to chris to get the keys.
"uu ate already ?" he asked nd i nodded
"whea uu goin" he asked nd i shrugged
"here man, b safe make sure yo location on. actually uu want me to come w uu ?" he asked nd i shook my head no and walked out into my car. i didn't get nothing major it's jus a undecorated white 2020 jeep compass. i went to the nearest Walgreens nd grabbed 5 pregnancy tests. when paying for it i asked for a black bag. i paid for it nd got bacc in the car but my heart was beating fast. when i started driving i had to pull over to throw up again. i went in my purse and grabbed a piece of gum putting it in my mouth drinking from the water bottle from the day before that was in my car. i went in the house and went straight to the bathroom locking the door taking all the tests. i followed the instructions nd set a timer sitting in the bathroom scared and anxious. when my timer went off i looked at the tests and froze. they all came back positive. i felt a lump in my throat and tears come to my eyes. i wiped my face and grabbed my hoodie getting ready to leave bacc out since i didn't wanna cry while eb was in here. i grabbed the tests whipping them off and putting all proof bacc in the bag with me and went back to my car ignoring wha anybody was trying to say to me. i got in the car and drove. just drove. i ended up at the house i used to live at and cried.
i scream cried. i never cried so hard in my life but i couldn't take it. why outta everybody does this have to be my life. i'm not ready to be a parent, i never even had parents. i don't believe in abortions. i promised myself after the last time i would never ever do it again. i don't have nobody. i can't raise a child myself i'm a fucced up individual
"kill the baby"
"kill yourself and the baby"
"uu gone be just like yo parents"
"uu already like yo parents y uu think uu alone"
"go ghost"
i was sobbing. tears and snot everywhere
'maybe with me being pregnant my parents will actually be better parents and care about me. like they did last time' i thought. i got pregnant before and i chose the get a abortion but they was so nice to me throughout the whole process. they was actually loving parents but they beat tf outta me when they found out i didn't want to keep the baby.
