The story of our love

Chapter XXX

Minho's POV

She smiled...She smiled at me. I couldn't believe it. Maybe she doesn't remember a thing or maybe she forgave me. The doctor closed the door. She was having a check up. I was so worried. The doctor stood there for like half a hour. Then the door got opened. He talked something with her mother. i couldn't tell it was a good news what she was hearing. Zico went to talk with the doctor. I saw towards her. She was looking at me too and she smiled again. my heart fluttered. i was sa happy i couldn't tell. she waved at me and asked me to go in. i made an insecure step towards her bedroom. i was afraid of what she could say to me. but i went in and sat near her. i just smiled awkwardly and she smiled back. nothing made me happier than her smile. i hated myself, i hated for making her sad.
i wasn't sure what to say to her.

- how are you?- i asked her, quietly.

- i am good. what about you?

how was i? i was breathing but i was dead. without her i am not a human being , am nothing. i faked a smile and answered her.

- i am ... i miss you!
she sighted, took a deep breath, and smiled at me.

- Does your heart hurt? - she said
i looked at her confused. of course it hurt. it burnt like hell.

- a lot. - i said without facing her.

- that's how you made me feel. twice.

she started to cry quietly. her tears felt on her soft pale cheeks.
the burn in my heart stopped. my heart stopped. and now i wad truly dead.

- i forgive you, but i can't forget. every time ... - she took a break. bora did it every time she was tired, tired of her sickness.

-every time i see you it reminds me that you cheated on me and the fact that at first you sae me as a sex toy. that is .... how could you?

- am sorry.

- you should have been sorry before you did it. i would have better if you felt sorry for me than loving me.

i was about to talk.

- am not finished. our relationship , neither our friendship is over. after this you must go.

- Bora please listen to me. i was drunk... i d..

- go. please.

i got up. got closer to her. seeing her for the last time hurt. just a kiss in her forehead and i went , and didn't ever turned back. what my mum said she deserved to be happy and i wasn't the key to her happiness. the steps were heavy as i went towards the door. i turned around to see her for the last time. i had something to say to her:

- bora .

she looked me into the eyes. it wasn't the same look when i said her i love you for the first time, this look had nothing but sadness and no hope at all. where did the cheerful girl go? did i take her away from her?

- thank you! thank you for loving me! - i said as i left her room.

i greeted her mom and then Zico.

- please take care of her!

he just nodded. i knee he will. he knew her better. he loved her. and she loved him too. she just needed to forget me. for her to forget me i needed to stay out of her life. she would be happy.

*months later*
i learned from jonghwa that her health was getting better. she had gone back to japan for her studies, meanwhile i wad continuing them in Korea. what i discovered from zico's SNS is that he is in Japan with her. maybe they are dating i thought. anyway i was happy she was getting better. later on i discovered something. one day taeyang called me. at first i refused to listen to him. then he told me that that son of the bich, jangkook's brother or the club manager where taeyang worked told him to convince me putting a bet or he would fire him. but there was no turning back. even if i told bora this she wouldn't take me back. she was happy, and that was all that mattered. something that you love you have to let them go.