I Wanted You to Stay

Where Do We Go Now?

    "El...Mya called" Cara says from out side Ellie's bedroom door. "Can I come in?" Ellie takes a very needed deep breath, even though they never seem to really help.
    "Yeah. Come in" Cara walks in, gently closing the door.
    "What happend? I thought you guys were happy. I mean, he flew from Colorado to San Francisco to break up with you?" Ellie shakes her head. She didn't even think about the fact he put thought into this. Maybe it would have hurt less if he had just sent a text, or maybe that would've hurt more.
    "I don't know. We were goofing around, then he just got all serious. He was on an almost three hour flight? I don't don't know if he planned to do it, or if it was spur of the moment"
    Cara sighs, "Did you get a reason why?"
    "Yeah. I dont wanna talk about this anymore" Cara gives a simple nod of understanding.
    "Alright. Then, how about we go get food, then we just go have fun. Just us"
    "I feel like I'll lose my mind if I leave my room let alone the apartment." Cara sighs. She knows the worst thing for Ellie would be to stay inside her room.
    "Ellie, your surrounded by him in here." Cara looks at the floor, trying to find the words. "Not all love is going to last. As much as that hurts, you can't live your life sulking about a boy who left. If you do that, your going to miss the man who is going to stay"
     "Your too wise. And my brain doesn't wanna hear smart people things. It wants to sulk in sadness because I'm getting really left for the first time." Cara sighs, she knows deep down she can't tell Ellie how to feel. She can't stop the hurt.
    "Ellie. You deserve more than the hurt Mili gave you. You are more than some stupid boy who can't even book his own flight to see his girlfriend. Two years is a long time, but there will be someone stay for atleast ten times that, show him that you don't need him"
    "I think I do need him, where do we go now? Really it's where do I go now. I'm 23 I haven't been alone in what feels like forever" Cara sighs. She feels bad for Ellie, they had been together for a little over two years now. Then just to end it with exclamation made no sense, especially if everything seemed okay.
    "Two years isn't forever. I'm sorry El"
    "It's fine, I'm in the real world now, I guess I need to focus on finishing my school, and living life instead of trying to find love" Ellie sounded angrier, not at Cara, maybe at Milo, but mainly herself because she let herself get hurt.
    "El, this isn't your fault. Milo is such an idiot for leaving you. You are one of the nicest, and caring people I've ever met, and he gave that up. don't think this is your fault because it's not"
    "Thanks Cara" she pauses. "I just wish I knew what drove him away"
    "Rethink your step, but instead of just today, go from the start, to the end"