A Love Of Tomorrow

Chapter Ten

It is 10am in the morning on Sunday July 11th and I haven't left mom's side since she came to the hospital. Jax and I are still in our clothes from our wedding. Mom has told me many times to go home and change but I know I can't. she is the only parent I have left, I'd be devasted if she died. So I text Scarlett to come see mom and stay with her while Jax and I go home to change. She replied with yes in all capitals. I love how she is trying to bond with Brie especially if Brie might die..  Scarlett rushes over as fast as she can, I let mom know that we are just going home to change and that Scarlett is coming to stay with her, she was happy that I am finally getting out of my wedding dress. 

"Hey Scarlett, Mom is just in Room 123. Thank you for taking over for us, I really appreciate it sis"

"No worries sis, you both need to go home and have showers and change, it has been more than 24 hours since you and Jax got married. I swear you need to change"

"We will be back around 4pm sis, I know its so far away but both of us need a little sleep especially since babies aren't being nice to me right now"

Jax and I say bye to mom for now while we head home and get showered also change and have a nap because we are so exhausted mentally and physically.  We are both dead asleep, my phone keep going off but I don't hear it as im way to tired. As six hours past, we both finally wake up.. I roll over and look at my alarm clock and 6pm. Oh shit I whack Jax and tell him. We both jump out of bed and start getting ready as we both feel so bad but I grab my phone and text Scarlett.

*Texting*

"hey sis. I am so sorry, we just woke up.. how is mom? I feel so bad that we weren't there at the time we said we would be"

"oh Maddie, it's alright. both of you were so exhausted and needed that sleep. Mom is doing okay, still doing tests on her. They say she will be here for another day. She can go home tomorrow and just wait till results come in"

"Okay thanks sis for the update, tell mom we are so very sorry and that we will be there to pick her up when she is ready to go home"

I get a text from Aria saying she needs to meet me to explain things, we head to our favorite coffee shop where I see Aria in a nervous kind of  facial expression. We talk about everything and she told me that she is pregnant with a little girl but she has cancer also wants my help getting things sort of for when the day comes she gives birth then dies, I agreed to help because why wouldn't I. she is my best friend and the though of losing her hurts more than ever. but then Scarlett told Brie what I said and Brie was okay, she also understood what we are going through. I have been cramping a lot lately especially when I am bleeding. I haven't told Jax yet because I am scared on what he is going to say but I have my ringer on my phone for when mom is ready to come home. I am going to talk to Jax now about this as he is the father of these babies. I yell from the bedroom if he could come to me which he did.

"Yes my love. Everything okay?"

"Uhm, I think so. We need to talk though. It is about the babies"

"uh.. What happened?"

"So I think I need to get checked out as I have been cramping for the last 2 weeks and bleeding as well"

After I opened up to Jax, he makes me pack a hospital bag then help me to the car and he drives me to the emergency to get checked as we are both scared to lose one or both babies. We pull up to the same hospital that Brie is at currently but she don't know that we are here plus I haven't even told my own sister, Jax runs into the emergency and gets a wheelchair. He brings me in as we go straight into a room and wait for the doctor. We hear a knock on the door and it is the doctor, She looks at me and asks me what is happening.

"Hello Maddie, My name is Dr. Amelia Vanderhoff. I am here to check on you and the babies. So you been bleeding and cramping. How long has both ben going on?"

"for about a week and a half. I came to make sure nothing serious is wrong as I am worried about miscarrying"

'Okay, that does sound a little worrying but let me grab the ultrasound machine so while I go find one, can you lay down and ill be back soon"

"Yeah will do"

I lay down and wait for Dr. Vanderhoff to come back, Jax holds my hand and tells me that everything will be okay soon. Praying so hard for the best results. There is a knock on the door and Dr. Vanderhoff came back with the ultrasound machine. She warned me that the gel will be cold and she stares at the screen blankly with a worried look on her face. I look at her and ask if everything is okay. She put away the machine and cleaned the left over gel off my belly.

"Maddie and Jax, I unfortunately have some bad news for the both of you.."

"What is it doctor?"

"the two of you have lost one of the babies which was the boy baby. The one that died, didn't develop properly. Not your fault at all plus if you didn't come get checked out, I can guarantee that you would of lost both babies"

"Well thanks doctor for everything"

As we walk out of the hospital knowing we will only have our baby girl with us on earth makes us so sad. I send a text to Scarlett telling her something came up and that she needs to pick up mom, she was confused but We aren't ready to tell her or mom that we lost one baby.. I can't believe that happened. oh my god, i am going to be a horrible mother. I feel like the stress caused me to lose our baby boy. Fuck! As soon as we get home, I go to the bedroom and cry my eyes out. I told Jax to leave me alone for awhile and to let Scarlett know what happened but to not tell Brie yet. 

*Knock Knock*

"hii baby, I thought to grab you a coffee and something to eat. I know you don't feel like eating but the doctor said you need to"

"Thanks my love. Can I ask you something?"

"Yes Maddie you can"

"Jax, Am I a bad mother for losing our baby boy?"

"Maddie, you are not a bad mom. it was not your fault and you couldn't have helped it plus the doctor said she didn't know what caused it"

"But Jax..."

"No buts Maddie. You need to rest and your body needs to rest especially when our little girl will be here in two months. I Know you don't feel happy or excited. But I reassure you that things will be okay babykins"

Will Jax and Maddie be okay? How will Brie feel about them losing a baby?