I Wish You're A Girl (Sonadow)

𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 6: 𝑀𝑦 𝑃𝑜𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑏𝑙𝑒 𝐴𝑓𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛

It was him.

It was him all along, it was him who can provide me the comfort I've been desiring all these terrible years. He was always there, he never left. He never gave up on having the chance to enter my dark background. But, what did he see in me?

All I did in my whole life is send him away, because of my selfishness, but who can blame me. I fear too much that if let someone in, they will eventually fade away, and leave me once again in the dark.

I don't understand my self at times, I always drive people away to avoid attachment, but at the same time I also want someone to save me from my loneliness.

Sonic...he never grew tired of trying, a very impressive characteristic to admire. It's amazing to think that someone like him believes that they can achieve something, but like he's the hero, the hero in everyone's story.

He's always the sunshine in everyone's perspective, he give those people a helping hand in times of trouble, he fights the darkness, he always send them away, he is always the hero.

He is also a sign, of hope. He wants people to know that everything's going to be alright, that the next day will be the best day of your life, that in the end, the right solution will be in your grasp. He just loves encouraging people.
But what if the person he wants to save doesn't believe in any of those things, those foolish things. What will he do now? Will he try over and over again? Even though it hurts him deeply that it causes him to go numb?

Just because... he loves that person, what will he do if it's very forbidden and wrong. Is it tho? I don't know, no one knows the real answer for that.

If you want to be the hero in my story, I am not sure if I can allow you.

Sonic, I do have an affection for you. You have so many admirable traits, kindness and hope. Clearly I don't have those, though you managed to make my heart beats run fast. I'd surely laugh that we're polar opposites.

But even if I do have some feelings for you, I feel like the "us" that you wanted will never be fulfilled.

I'm sorry, it's just so wrong...

𝑇𝑜 𝐵𝑒 𝐶𝑜𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑢𝑒𝑑...