mistaken vow

"Our hands are intertwined and he vowed that nothing could break us apart."

She was hopeful but like a broken glass, everything will never be the same.

We're once lovers with the stars aligned
But ended up, each other's memories.
Life makes spin the daze of magical to jaded
And unfolded the trick expired with pinched casualties.

We fixed our problems together each time
But I don't see this dilemma as even worth vexing for.
This feels like a fever dream after a haze of tender dime-
After the cruelty of betraying my heart to the core.

You're the only one that I kiss,
I'm always waiting for your warm embrace,
A true love that I thought that would not miss,
But with a drop of blurred fidelity, everything was a mere wild-goose chase.

Pretended to see your acts as "respectable"
While you continued to sly with flawless darkened "white" lies.
I'm trying to restore the broken-glass cracks that went beyond the table,
Knowing a perfect foundation will never see a compromise.

"You know what, I became a robot?"

I manifested the existence of being numb-
Refrained the thought of being broken.
Breaking up was never an option to succumb,
I burned my love to keep us going with the mind of advices from the unspoken,

Bottled up my emotions in a jar of hearts...
I'm too tired with your countless fallacies and shortcuts.
We marked our loved like to the moon and back,
But words without willed affirmations are nothing but empty madness.

"I gave you everything!"
Never committed such disgusting act
A crime we shall never conceive and perceive
But you did-
You were still cheating.

The two of us know I'm loyal and faithful even we didn't started,
But maybe I am a fool to think we're on the same way of thinking.
...I started to gaslight myself that maybe I am the one who never filled gaps,
But I later on realized, "Why am I blaming myself If you're the one responsible for this myriad pain?"

From the start, it was always you
who reeked my blissful love.
It was never me who stirred a love of meaning and dignity..
You said you loved me, more than I could think...but at what cost?
A million drops of knife as the excruciating arrows pierced your love disguised as venomous poison.

"Please, just give me a chance," he pleaded with his knees while clasping his hands on the ground, the next day, on a rainy day. She kneeled down and faced his swelling eyes while droplets of rain covered the rivers sunken within his insanity.

"I gave you signs, a chance and the times I almost caught you on the act...you didn't even bother to stop..." She looked away from him. A tear fell down from her left eye while looking from the ruthless rain that would continue to come around.

"It was just a woman... they are not near perfect like you." He grabbed her hand and she looked at him with confusion and distressed. "We can fix this again, together," He tightened his grip as if it was his last chance and smiled as if no timing could make up for this last catch.

She laughed three times. "I never thought you would stoop this low." And she left him while he was shouting her name to turn around and choose him again this time... but she did not.

I am choosing myself to stop this chaotic heartache.
Love carries a straightforward commitment that some of us, pretend to comprehend;
Dropping this ring-not because I failed a sacred vow-as life teaches me to love myself.
I chose to stop as the love I consumed was nothing but a pile of trauma and scars.

It teaches me to never tolerate one's toxicity as it will become an endless cycle.
Living and loving a life with peace and serenity is all the price we deserve.
The heartfelt ship that I yearned, sank on the depths of sailing amidst the madness of waves.
For one last time, it's time to let go rather than to hold in as chances of even restarting are void.

Years swift like a one glory day. She was dolling herself up to be pretty. The mirror that witnessed her misery faded a face of discovery.

While putting her lipstick on, she noticed a faded photograph underneath her table. It was a chapter full of allusions to her forbidden infamous journey.

"Finally, I made it out in this deep misery." She renounced a statement that molded from what she calls as a "passing memory."

Loving you felt like an Alice when trapped in a quirky wonderland,
Committing a lifetime with you is a remedy to see life through rose tinted glasses.
Loving you reminded me a sad but beautiful yet tragic core memory,
The moments we splatter are nothing but a long versed supercut of tragedy;

Leaving you was the obvious but extremely hard to even think of-
I've made this choice as I see a version of myself lost in control of direction.
Leaving you feels like a perfected exam knowing I did every questions right,
You're making me hold us tightly but I think this is for the best.

Cutting off you from my life is inducing this prolonged ordeal of toxicity,
I just wanted to breathe in a world of felicity.
I may not tore the chapters of "us" in my memory,
But all I need to do is to shatter this illusion of being with you in reality.

I want to spread my arms, so that i could smile with a sense of eudaimonia -
To hold my dear myself safe while being petty,
Living in a world where fragmented fantasies are mere of nuanced delicacy,
While the rawness of devotion and tragedy are both enigmas of tainted statements.

He regretted it later in his life but like the broken glass, everything will not be the same.

"I did nothing but to keep his mistaken vow."