Her Savior | ON HOLD

☆Chapter 10☆

While waiting for their order to get ready, I start thinking about the recent interaction between Matteo and me.

He can't possibly like me, I'm too broken, messed up, and used.

He's not gonna want me, he's gonna want someone pretty, and clean and someone who doesn't have as many problems as I do.

He can't possibly want to invite problems into his life even unknowingly.
He doesn't like me and that's the bottom line. Ana comes out with a tray of food so I fetch the drinks and we start walking to their table.

While walking to their table I start to feel lightheaded but I manage to keep myself standing upright so that I don't drop anything because 3 of the coffees on this tray are hot coffees.

Ana put their food on the table and while I was putting the drinks down, my hands started to lightly shake and the coffee started to shake as well, while I was putting them down on the table. Some of the hot coffee spills onto my wrist and I drop the tray onto the table and I hiss

Since Matteo was sitting on the table where I put the drinks, he stands up, pulls my wrist to himself, and starts rolling up my sleeve. In the moment, I forgot all about my scars but when I look at my wrist and see them, I pull my arm away.

"It's...it's okay, I'll clean it up," I say quickly rolling down my sleeve. Matteo looks at me with worry and confusion in his eyes but he immediately covers it up.

"Are you sure?" He asks, "Yeah, I'll clean it up," I say a si quickly walking away and into the back to go the staff bathroom. I go in. I lock the door and I start hyperventilating thinking of the worst things.

They saw my scars
They saw my scars
They saw my scars

She saw my scars
She saw my scars
She saw my scars

He saw my scars
He saw my scars
He saw my scars

I feel tears welling up in my eyes but I don't wanna cry because Anaya can tell when I am crying and I don't want to mess up my concealer because I didn't bring my bag into the bathroom with me.

After 2 minutes I exit the bathroom after making sure I look okay and I go back out to the counter.

I see Ana there and she looks at me with a worried look.
"Are you ok, did you get burnt?" She asks
"No don't worry, I'm good," I say giving her an assuring smile under my mask. See pulls me into a tight hug and I return the hug. Once she lets me go, I look to Matteo's area and I see him looking at me.

He sends me a look asking if I'm ok and I nod at him.

"Ooh, I sense love in the air," Ana says and I turn to look at her. "Don't start" I tell her and she laughs.

"You should be the last person to speak, if looks could get people pregnant, you and Angelo would be expecting a whole football team of kids," I say.

She laughs and hits my bicep where Jason dragged the knife and I wince. She looks at me with worry. "Relax, I'm kidding," I say and she still looks skeptical but she gives a nervous laugh anyway and heads to the back.

I sit down on the stool because my body hurts and I take out the book that Ana gave me to read.

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It's been about 8 hours since we opened, so that's 1 hour till we close.

The cafe is mostly empty now but Matteo and his friends are still here.
They've been ordering food and drinks the whole day and they haven't even eaten most of it.

Matteo walks up to the counter and I close my book already knowing he wants to come order more food.

I stand up and move closer to the counter.

"Hey Aaliyah," he says and I wonder how he knows my name but he then I remember Ana telling me that she told him.

"Hey," I say with a semi-bored look on my face.

"Can we get some more -"
"No, you can't get more food or more drinks or more of anything, there's so much food on your table," I say while I chuckle.

He smiles and goodness, I swear it's the best smile I've ever seen. It's beautiful.

His smile starts fading while we just stare at each other until his friends call him.

"Well, alright, we're gonna go finish that food, I hope," He says and I giggle.

He stares at me as if in shock and mesmerized by my giggle.

"Your friends, are calling you," I point out.
"Oh, yeah, ok," he says and he leaves.

"Aliyah," Ana whines. "Can you just give this a chance please, I can't take it anymore." She says.

I would love to give this a chance but I just can't. Look at me and look at him.
He can't like me.
We're 2 different people from 2 different worlds and I wouldn't want to burden him with myself. I can't do that to him, he deserves someone prettier and better and someone who doesn't come with so much baggage.

I just look at Ana and smile even if she can't see it and she sights and goes into the back.

I'd love to do this but I just can't. I can't be a burden in someone else's life.

A lot of people in my life would be so much happier without me in their lives and they can deny it but I know it's true.

My dad wishes he killed me when he could, he wishes I had never been born.
If my doesn't love me, who would?

I don't wanna disturb anyone so it's better if I just forget about it.