Countdown (Denki Angst)

Don't force rays of sun on me

Title inspired from Blossom by Lia (ITZY)

I DID IT, I FINISHED A CHAPTER IN JUST A COUPLE HOURS. Yes, I wrote this all today because of some free time I got since I only had 2 classes today. First day of the last semester of high schoolllllllll

It took a lot longer tho because I might have gotten distracted a lot.

Still coughing a little from being sick during my interim trip to Italy and Greece. I got hit on by an old man, it was really scary 😰 (like sir, I'm a minor, and the fact that so many random people thought I looked 12 😭)

Denki's POV

I peek my head into the classroom and see Midoriya crying and everyone around him trying to comfort him. I listen from outside of the classroom knowing that if I step in, I'll ruin everything. 

"It's so hard sometimes...I honestly don't even want to be alive most of the time which makes me scared that one day I'll act on it without anyone knowing. I know that it will hurt my friends and all of you guys, but I just don't know what to do" Midoriya whispers shakily. 

Ouch, when did he get so relatable? Well not including the caring part, I know that nobody would care if I were to die. I feel a pang in my heart suddenly and stay frozen in my spot for the next couple of minutes until talking breaks me out of my trance. 

"Hey Mido bro, you know we are all here for you. We all care for you so much, and we'll do anything to make you understand that you are loved." Kirishima says with a big smile. 

Why, why, why, why, why, why. 

They can say that all to Midoriya who isn't in our close friend group, but he doesn't care about me?!

Why am I so useless, why can't I do anything right for once. 

This whole plan was stupid in the first place, why did I think that they would actually change.

I feel tears start to form and it gets hard to hold them back. Since I'd just ruin everything with my mere existence, I decide to just walk away from the classroom and go back to the dorms. Well that was the plan until I hear Aizawa's voice. 

"Kaminari, where do you think you are going" 

I stop dead in my tracks and quickly wipe my face to get rid of any tears that might have slipped out. I take a deep breath in and slowly reply. 

"I'm just heading back to the classroom, I think I accidentally passed it" I turn my head around and put on a big fake grin. 

Aizawa rolls his eyes as he goes back into the classroom as he says

"Good, because you better not be skipping again. Your grades are already rock bottom as they are. Any further down and I'd have no choice to expel you. Honestly I'm not sure how you even got into the hero course with all this" he whispers the last part but I was still able to catch it. 

It hurts

It hurts so much

Make it stop, please

I'm begging you

Have you now realized what everyone thinks of you. 

EVEN YOUR OWN TEACHER THINKS YOU ARE A DISGRACE TO THE HERO COURSE. THERE IS NO POINT OF YOUR EXISTENCE, THERE ISN'T A SINGLE PERSON WHO EVEN LIKES YOU, YOU ARE DEAD TO EACH AND EVERY PERSON.

SO WHY DON'T YOU DO THEM A FAVOR AND DIE FOR REAL THIS TIME

"I c-can't. I said I'll give them a month...there is still time. They might change soon?"