Eventually Yours, Eros

Kabanata 003

Strange

To My Love,

Hello baby! I feel so sleepy na. I have lots of kwento but first how are you? I hope you are doing fine or baka tulog ka na or kung ano pa man, please take care it's 9:59pm hereee! so back to my kwento. My day was very exhausting puros linis :< I miss you although I don't know you, I hope I can meet you soon so you can hug me and tell me you love me hahaha. Tomorrow pala outing namin, I already bought the gift and food for tomorrow! Alam mo ang taas ng grades ko *smiles* sa exam pala I'm so happy with myself I'm starting to do so much better. I'll be wearing a bikini top tomorrow don't worry I'll take care of myself. See you soon, my love. Take care.

Truly Yours,

Dilara 💋

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DILARA

Hindi ko alam if matutuwa o maiinis ako na maganda ang tulog ko pero panay naman laman ng panaginip ko ay isang lalaking di ko kilala! You got to be kidding me! Ano ba namang utak toh kung ano ano na lang laman, if any girls like dreaming guys. I don't like it one but! especially when it keeps lingerng in your ind for about an hour thoroughly distrupting your ability to think.

Nakasimangot na naupo ako sa kama ko at tinabing ang mga buhok na tumatakip sa mga mata ko, inilibot ko ang paningin ko sa kwarto ko trying to process everything that just happened in my dream. Worst thing about me dreaming is that I can't stop thinking about it trying to put all fragments into one piece. Dahan-dahan na umalis ako sa pagkakaupo sa kama at nagstretching nang kaunti.

Mabilis na inayos ko muna ang mga unan at kumot ko bago napagdesisyonan na linisan ang bibig ko para makainom nang mainit at di ako lamigin kapag maliligo na. I check my closet and pulled out a simple blue ocean dress and my underwear. Maingat nainilatag ko ito sa kama at bumaba na para maghanda nang agahan.

I hummed myself one of Taylor's Swift unreleased song

"Ohh it's a need~ it's a need~ it's a neeedddd~ I would gooo anywhereee that you leeaddd~"

Singing are one of the feew things I love doing when I'm stresed out or things are bothering me, and it's very effective.

I just cooked myself a sunny-side-up egg and toasted some bread, also cutting myself half an apple. Patuloy na sinisimsim ko ang mainit na gatas ko while my mind starts flying elsewhere.

Subconsciously biting my lower lip nang may maalala sa panaginip, the guy in my dream had that warm and gentle feeling. As if he himself was bringing me peace, he was protecting me at cost, making me feel safe. It's like I was something so fragile to him, that he needed to keep an eye at me every damn time.

"Very...careless" I heard him whisper at that moment.

I snap at my thoughts when I realize where my thoughts were, naramdaman ko na naman na tila parang uminit ang pisnge ko o ang paligid ko. Uh I think I need to take a bath bago pa ako malate sa meeting.

I decided to sank myself on a relaxing bath tub full of bubbles and strawberry scented bath bombs, smiling widely how realization comes to me. Life was surprisingly good to me. No one would probably think that a girl who suffered so many traumas and harassment would end up being successful.

Siguro iniisip nang iba na masyado ako mapagtaas, na masyado ko pinapahalagahan ang sarili ko kesa sa mga bagay. People nowadays continue to bug me about married life, it's a good thing my family doesn't pressure me though, they fully understand that I want to prioritize myself over above all.

But my batchmate, my family's acquintance or mine, contiues to nag me, kahit hindi naman nila iyon concern. Hindi rin ak natutuwa na palagi nila ako kinokompara sa iba na masaya na may mag pamilya. Sayang daw lahi namin if di ako magaasawa, and I'm like di ko alam na palahian pala ako.