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She has long ago lost the desire to be alive. She is broken and bleeding. She was masking her tears with a smile so beautiful. She's tired of constantly fighting the demons to stay alive. She has given up on her life and herse...
The evening breeze is a bit too chilly. But it is perfect to enjoy a cup of coffee and other hot delicacies made by my mother. But what's even more perfect is, that I'm surrounded by people who are very close to me, and sharing laughs with them. My parents, my monkey aka my baby sister (well not so baby anymore), Nikhil, my brat of a best friend since we were in diapers, my grandparents, aunt and uncle, and my cousin. I'm so grateful for having these people in my life. I'm forever indebted to them for their immense love and affection. They always keep me happy and make me feel I'm valued. I get to be unapologetically carefree and jovial in front of them. And I can also share my sorrows and worries with them. I wish for everyone to have this kind of people in their lives.
So far my life has been moving forward wonderfully. I wouldn't say I did not face any problems, but they weren't that big that I'd be scared. After all, I have people to back me up. Great family and friends, very good health and education, comfortable life. I'm also doing something that I enjoy doing for a living. My life is perfect. I'm sorry if I'm boasting way too much about my life, I know it is not the case with many people out there. But let's just say that I'm thankful to god for giving me this kind of life. The ship of my life is sailing smoothly and peacefully.
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But that seems to have changed a bit recently. Ever since I saw her. She was the most interesting person I have laid my eyes on. Sure I have met women before and dated a few as well. But no one has captured my mind. It's not like she's the most beautiful woman in the world (well, she's indeed damn beautiful), but it's something more than her looks. She seemed a little mysterious to me. Like a puzzle to be solved to see what it is. But I didn't get to talk to her even once. Well, I tried once or twice but she outright ignored me. And also, I almost always got lost when I looked at her or observed her. Her actions, the way she talks and behaves. Her expressions, and those eyes, those damn fucking beautiful eyes that captivated me. Something about that unknown lady has got me thinking about her.
With these thoughts occupying my mind, I didn't realize that I had become silent and was smiling to myself. Until Nikhil threw a pillow at my face.
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"Hey! What man?" I said throwing the pillow back at him. "Well, we should ask you that man. Aunty has been calling you, but you were not responding at all", he stated. "Sorry was just thinking about something", I said and was about to talk to my mom but Nik [Nikhil] interfered saying, "Thinking about something or someone?" He said suggestively, which earned him another pillow hitting his face. I then turned to my mom, "Yes Mom why did you call me?"
"Someone? What are you saying, Nikhil?" Of course, my sister catches that up. She never misses a chance to trouble me. And so do Nik and my cousin. God, what a bunch of troublemakers I'm living with. "Oye monkey, you don't bother yourself with some nonsense this moron speaks. You continue with whatever you are doing." I tried to silence this down how much ever I could. "Chandu bangaram (affectionately calling a person, meaning gold), let Nikhil continue". Uff, now I can do nothing else except let Nik spill the beans. "Well, you see Amma, our hero saw a girl, almost 3 months ago..." And he narrated the whole thing, and its aftermath effects I'm experiencing.
"Hmm, that's strange of you. I think you might be in love dear cousin", Sushanth, my cousin said with a wink. "What! No. I just got a little curious, that's it. You don't make it into something entirely different, ok". I dismissed his silly interpretation. But why do I feel like he's not completely wrong though? "Maybe that's destiny? What if the universe is telling you that she is the one for you?", my dramatic sister tried reasoning. "Nithya I think you should pay more attention to your subject books rather than to romance novels", I encountered. Tit for tat baby sister. She pinched my arm in anger, which caused me to yelp a little. I was about to mimic her action when my dad said "Arrey, stop you both of you", which made us back off from each other right away.
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"Do you have her picture, Chandu?" My mom asked. "No Amma, I don't. She never posed for group pictures", I told her softly. "If all this is true, then I'm more than happy", my mother said. "Amma, no. Please don't go overboard. Nik just exaggerated his narration, I glared at him and they both just took it to another level, that's it. I don't know who she is or where she is. I don't even remember her name. I'm not even sure whether I'll see her again at least, (I wish to see her again, very much), so you don't get your hopes high, okay?"She looked as if she was thinking for a few seconds, but nodded at me in the end. "But I hope you find her again", and patted my cheek before leaving the room. I too wish the same Amma. But I wonder if that happens at all.
Then my dad looked at me with a smile then asked, "Okay, have you all got your dresses ready for Sushanth's engagement tomorrow?" We all said yes and changed the topic to tomorrow night's occasion. _________________________________________
APOLOGIES FOR ANY SORT OF SHORTCOMINGS IN THIS CHAPTER.
