Few would argue against a more balanced use of my time and savings, and now, years later, as I've regained a sense of normalcy, I can't help but look back wistfully and wonder where I'd be financially had a different path been chosen. This same path, however, led to Ellie, the woman I've been together with these last years. She unselfishly shares her home and helps in the cost and burden of these remaining child-rearing years.
We are both in our fifties, and with age, stability and a better appreciation for camaraderie exists. Of course, age also contributes to stubbornness, and at times we can struggle with scenarios complicated by the emotional baggage each carries. To say I love her unconditionally is a phrase often used too lightly. I love Ellie for the stability she brings and helps maintain in our lives. I love her for her unwavering loyalty, the role she has played in my healing, and the faith she has in us, and for our future together. Perhaps the reference used earlier was not so ill-suited after all, and my story will end with 'boy gets girl back.' Not the same girl, but the right one.
As for work, I never imagined that I would return to a casino. It had been more than 30 years since last experienced as a college student on a summer break, but I am thankful for the gainful employment that allows me to provide for my family, keeps me connected to youth, and provides an opportunity for more walking than ever desired.
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NAVEL GAZING: excessive absorption in self-analysis or focus on a single issue
Non-Fiction-A Lie I decided to focus on family, choosing to believe-and have faith-that everything else would fall into place. I wasn't comfortable-or good-at lying to her. So, when Samantha surprised me one day by swallowing her pride and asking directly if a...
