Love against hate

Your crossing my mind

Dabi pov:

I can't get that stupid bird out of my mind ever since the war. I won't deny i want him, i need him again but it's been almost 2 months no way in hell he would want to see me again

I broke up with him, i burned his wings and damaged his vocal cords after telling him i fucking loved him who the fuck does that?!

"T-touya?.." toga called out "don't call me that" i respond with my voice breaking. "It's been almost 2 m-months since the war.." her voice was shaking almost with fear "what will we do now?.." hearing her voice like that killed me she's only 16 she may be a villian but she still has a heart. I saw a tear fall down her face as she looks down..she looks so upset

"I..i really don't know himiko" i told her trying not to cry even more than i already was. "For now we just need to focus on hiding" i looked down thinking about keigo and where he is now.

"You still love hawks don't you?" Toga asked. I looked back at her with a cold gaze "he doesn't know that we know that he betrayed us but he had his reasons to..Of course i still love that feathered asshole but this is how things are meant to be. We live in a society that thinks villians are just born evil when in all of reality most of us are just broken kids" i sighed getting up

Toga embraced me the second i got up
I pat her head and reassure her that Eve thing will be okay, i walk out going god knows where
We had moved across the city it was only a couple hours away but it worked for us for now atleast

I continue walking to i don't know I'm just walking. Stepping on leaves and twigs
I really did miss keigo but it's best if I'm not in his life anymore. I will never forget him i mean how could i? He changed my life

I felt blood forming as i wipe it away. My now white hair swaying in the wind and my jacket blowing on every direction possible i ignite a flame in my hand watching the flame dance in the wind

If i could take back everything i could. Seeing my little brother's face and my old mans face when i revealed myself i can only imagine my mother and other siblings. I should of stayed but i did what was best for me. But i left them alone in a house not a fucking home (that one dabi song reference lyric thing) i hope one day they will forgive me but it won't happen not after that war

I walk back to the hideout knowing shigaraki wont rest till the heros are dead. Hell it's not even shigaraki anymore it's All for one he took crusty's body for his own gain.
I walk back into the new hideout looking around for the others. Compress had been captured by the heros so it was only me, toga, spinner and shigaraki

"Any news on shigaraki?" I asked spinner as he walks into the room he looked beat up but who wasn't himiko looked like hell. "Stop calling him that we all know it's all for one now" he sighed in annoyance "but it's still shigaraki in there he is just locked away inside his head" i argued not wanting my friend to really be gone to a monster who is just pure evil. Himiko comes out having her head down and muttered words i thought i would never hear from her

"I want to become a hero"

Spinner looked at her in complete shock about to say something till she spoke up again "when i was fighting ochaco she said she didn't want to fight me she just wanted to save the people who were in danger because of us, she tried to not fight me but i didn't give her a choice but to when all she wanted to do was just save people it over these past few weeks I've been thinking about what she said and i want to become a hero like her"

I sadly smiled at toga as she finished talking spinner just walked away but i went up to toga and hugged her "i want to become a hero to but after everything they have done i don't think they will let us but himiko if you want to become a hero then go and accomplish your dream I'll be right behind you and by your side" i felt a tear and himiko was tearing up thanking me

"Now go get ready you have a long journey ahead of you" i told her as she skipped away going to go pack yeah it hurt losing someone who was like a sister to me but i knew this is what was best for her

I watched as toga said her goodbyes to everyone then she hugs me tight "I'll miss you touya" she said in a whisper. She lets go and takes her suitcases and then she's gone.

"I'll miss you to himiko toga" i say turning back around heading to my room. I'll miss her like crazy but this is what is best

"Maybe there is hope"