crush

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Of course he'd say no. What did I even expect? That he'd say yes?
But every time I can, I take the chance to look at him. Sometimes we make eye contact and when we do my heart starts racing uncontrollably. Recently I spend the whole math lesson looking at him. One of my friends even said I looked like I was about to slobber at the sight of him. My other friend likes him too. She told me that I probably like him more. Well... maybe. But I can't. I couldn't date him even if he liked me.
Because I feel so immature. I feel way too young to be ready to date anyone seriously.

But oh I still love how he acts, I love his way of talking and the sound of his voice. Maybe we can be friends? But I know it would rip my heart apart. Even seeing him laugh makes me a little sad. But I can't. I need to let go of him. Need to go on. And although I know it's so wrong I keep looking at him, I keep glancing at him because sometimes I feel like he's the only one I want. And I want to cry. Cry because I can't have him and never will.