Gone Gone Kins

Black void

"What the hell, Tom?" Meredith spits out, nursing her cheek. I throw her off me. Her hands cling to the mud. I stand up. Angry. I ball up my fists.

"You don't have to stick up for me! Now i look like an even bigger pussy than I already am!" I yell. Anger fills my voice. I don't even let him speak, I grab my bag that was on the bench, and i storm out of the courtyard. Out of the school. I don't want to be near that place at all.

I decide to head home, thats the only place i know i can be because my parents aren't home. I reach my silent house, i throw my bag onto the floor. A strange impulse takes over me. I head to my room, opening my wardrobe. I pull out a tight purple top that has cuts in it, and a black mini skirt. I put on arm sleeves and knee high socks. After changing, I glance at myself in the mirror, whore.

"Whore, yeah yeah." I mock the voice in my head. I go into my bathroom, i throw on some black eye makeup and mascara, and some pink lip tint. I go over to Tony's room, i grab his telly he left. Hesitating for a moment, i decide to call Chris.

Chris answers on the second ring, his voice sounding lazy, "Tony, whats up?"

"Its not tony, its kins. Kinsley."

A moment of confusion passes through the phone, and then Chris laughs, "Kinsley? Now, this is unexpected. What's got you dialing my number, sweetheart?"

"Drugs, pills, alcohol, whatever you got i'll take it."

He chuckles awkwardly "Um kinsley— i mean kins, you really think i'm gonna give you drugs to you? I mean your tony's younger sister, he'll kill me if i do."

My frustration boils over, "Chris, I don't care! I need something to numb everything, okay? Just this once, and I won't bother you again."

There's a heavy sigh on the other end. "Meet me at the park, near the swings. I'll see what I can do."

I hangup, i throw the phone back onto the bed. I walk down stairs to the kitchen. I grab a blank sheet of paper and a black pen, 'GOING OUT WILL BE BACK SOON - KINS' i scribble down, messy. With my note left on the kitchen counter, I slip out of the house, some money in my hand. Its about to be sunset, the air is cool, and the streets are quiet. I navigate the familiar paths towards the park where the swings cast long shadows under the dim glow of streetlights.

Chris is already there when I arrive, a bag in hand. I stand in front of him, he's sitting on one of the swings. He hands me the package without hesitation. I look inside of the brown paper bag, finding a mix of pills, lsd, and small baggies of cocaine. I close the bag back up and i hand him the money.

Chris pockets the money, "you better not tell your brother i gave you these."

I nod with a small smirk on my face. "Do you have a telly i can use? I need to call someone" i lean against the swing pole.

He takes out his telly, and hands it to me. I take the telly from Chris, my fingers tapping the buttons as I dial Cora's number.

"Hell-ooooo who is this!" Cora says, her voice high pitched as always.

"Cora, its Kins, come to the park."

Cora's voice bursts through the telly, "Kins! Hi! I'm coming in ten!"

I hangup, and i hand the phone back to chris and he leaves, i sit on a nearby bench. The cold metal sends shivers through out my body.

Cora arrives in her signature fashion, her big frizzy curly brown hair, and vibrant clothing. Cora bounces towards me, her presence radiating energy. "Kins, darling! Long time no see!" she exclaims.

Unable to find my voice, I greet her with a small smile. Shit why cant i talk.

I hand her the bag, she opens it and take out four lsd's and two pills. She gives me two lsds and gives me a pill. She sits next to me. I stare at the drugs in my palm, i've done this before, why am I nervous. I pop the pill, swallow it dry, then i place both the lsd's in my mouth. She copy's me exactly. I stand up and i start walking.

"Kins! Kins! Wait up!" She exclaims. I walk over to the bus stop. She rushes towards ms, "are we gonna do the cocaine?"

I glance over at her, shes holding two baggies up. I grab one of them, and i sit on the bench. I open the baggie and I carefully spread it along the arm rest, i grab out a dollar i had in my bra. I roll it up, and i sniff up the white powdery substance. I throw my head back, laughing.

"Its burnss" i mumble. Burns in a good way.

I glance over at Cora, who does the same as me. The bus arrives, its mechanical hum blending with the pulsating beats in my ears. I hop on first, sitting in the backseat. Cora catches up to me and sits next to me. I feel all of the drugs instantly kick in. My head pulsing, my feet tingling, my arms feel like their drooping. I stare out the window, the bus starts to move. Cora's annoying chatting blurs out. Suddenly, the world feels peaceful. I feel like I'm normal.

The world around me becomes a black void. I glance over to Cora, everything feels slowed down. "Cora" i say, my voice burning my throat.

She looks at me. "Yes kins?"

"Everything finally feels numb." I smile.

She smiles back at me awkwardly, "yeah.. i have no idea what you just said!"

We both burst out into laughter.

The bus stops and we head off. We walk around not knowing where to go. The world around me, still a black void. Cora leading me by hand.

Cora nudges me, her voice sounds like a beautiful melody. "Kins, look at that! Isn't it beautiful?" Her eyes sparkle as she points to a mural on a building, its colors swirling like liquid paint.

"Woah" i mumble. I walk towards it, i place my hand on it. The paint sticks to my skin. I pull off, and i look at it. Paint drips from my hand.

Cora and I continue our stroll through the city, our laughter echoing in the empty streets. Cora tugs at my arm, leading me towards a dimly lit park. We find ourselves drawn to a fountain at the center of the park. I dip my fingers into the fountain, the cool water sending shivers down my spine. Everything starts to spin, my breathing starts to scatter all over the place. I turn my body towards Cora who isnt there.

"Cora?..." i call out. My voice disoriented. Nothing but a black void. "Cora!" I scream.

Its only me and this fountain. My breathing becomes heavy. Suddenly a force pulls me back, making me fall into the cold water. I scream, water choking me. I grip the outside rims of the fountain trying to pull myself out. My fingers fall, every in me shuts off.

Black void.