The Contract Fiancee [#1 Of The Singhanias Series]

💖His Confession💖

Being alive, is not just an involuntary action of breathing, or the involuntary movement that happens behind my ribcage. Unlike the common belief being alive is more than that. It's a feeling of having a purpose, an aim for which you can live or more likely you want to live. Being alive is a feeling where you wake up and look forward to something or rather someone.

I used to be alive once , and NO the feeling was not as intense as I feel it nowadays, but it was enough for a child. It was enough for me back then to have her, along with my family , friends and those origami books I used to love more than my own soul. But that little feeling of being alive left me when she chose to walk away from me for her Love, as she used to call it.

Since then I have lost that feeling. Nothing and no one interested me enough to be alive and Since then only I was sure that love is a stupid fictional thing. I already believed that because of my parents but seeing her walk away from me because of it, definitely left a bitter taste on my tongue. I never had an issue with other people having it but in my world love was impossible. But something changed my beliefs or rather someone.

A certain black eyed sunflower, decided that it was ok to enter my life unexpectedly and turn it upside down. She not only changed my view on love and turned me into some love sick puppy, but she also made me feel alive.Yes I feel alive, I feel like having a purpose, a reason to breathe. I felt something I thought I was unable to feel. And all this because of her.

My love.My Shika. My Sunflower.

She came like some freaking silent ghost and creeped her way inside my soul, so deep that I have stopped feeling the void, I was feeling from years. For years I was a robot, working my ass off and being a responsible elder son but then she came and made me realize that I can be human , that I can be alive again , that I can be me again.

That's the reason that I don't claim to love her, because love is a small word to describe the feeling I have for this goddess sitting beside me. She is not just a woman I love, she is the air I breathe, the blood which pumps in my veins. She is the other half my soul, scratch it.......... she is my soul, the one without which I will be a lifeless shell, nothing.

And I don't ever ever ever want to be nothing again, not because that feeling scares me but because her leaving me scares me more. I don't want her to leave me and that's the reason I am hiding so many things from her. I know it's not right and I will have to tell her one day but for some time I want to live in this bubble where her leaving me is not the constant thought on my mind.

A small hand with slender fingers waved in front of my face breaking my trance. I look aside to find her looking at me with a worried expression covering her face, as that cute little frown rests on her forehead. A new wave of warmth grips my heart as I see her being worried for me.

" What are you thinking so deeply?"

I move a hair strand away from her forehead, " Not much, just 100 ways to steal you from here, so we can have some quality time instead of watching this stupid animated movie with my friends and cousins." I try my most grumpy tone as I glare at the backs of all these morons who are spread in Shantanu's hotel room.