I didn't feel like telling Rose about losing my virginity yet. I would have to find a time to tell her so that no one else could hear it. I didn't want it to be at school because someone would hear and over the phone she could screenshot it. I trusted Rose with all my life but she had been acting odd recently.
She never walked to school with me and never came over for sleepovers and barely even texted me. Our lunches together were awkward like there was something I didn't know and I was worried. Rose was my best friend in the whole world and I don't know if i could live without her. I knew that if her and I stopped being friends I would be so lonely and miserable.
She also knows so much about me it worries me. She could expose Harry and I to the whole entire school if she wanted to and that's scary. I didn't think she was that childish but she loves attention and a story like Harry and I would get her a lot of attention. I loved my best friend to death but it was almost if we were near our end. With how weird she was acting I worried that she knew something I didn't or was just decided we were growing apart.
Rose Bud: We need to talk at lunch.
Daisy: Okay.
I was terrified to talk with her during this lunch period. I was hoping it would go well and we could talk out our differences if there were any. I wanted everything to work out positively between her and I. If Harry or Niall had gotten in the way of our friendship then I would kick them out in a heartbeat. I knew that I would much rather have a good best friend by my side than a boy would could fuck me over.
I walked into the lunch room and she was already at our table. I quickly walked over and sat across from her. She didn't even look up at to me because she was so into whoever she was texting.
"Hi", i said and she locked her phone and looked at me. She seemed completely fine but I guess I did too. I was feeling so many emotions on the inside that my outsides could never even express.
"I have something to tell you and you aren't going to be happy with me after and you aren't going to want to be friends with me after", she said tears slipping down her cheeks.
My heart started to beat faster and anxiety pumped through my veins. I had no idea what to expect anymore. She had never been the type to start catty drama or hurt people with lies but I assumed that was where this was going. She wouldn't have anything to apologize for if it wasn't something that hurt me. I had seen Rose cry before at other things but I knew she would never cry in a public place like school unless she needed to.
"Okay."
"I don't know how to really explain it in detail and it doesn't matter because either way its hurtful but I spread the rumor that you and Niall had sex. Niall must have been talking about it and Harry heard so he told you. Niall didnt start it. I did", she said and my mouth dropped open in shock.
"Fuck you", I said, I wanted to stand up and walk away from her that very second but I had to hear more. I needed her to explain herself more so that I knew that this was the truth.
"I was just so jealous", she explained," I never got to see you anymore because you were either with Harry or Niall and I missed you. I'm sorry."
"All you had to say was you missed me and we could've hung out. You know I would've done anything to hang out with you. I would cancel a date with either of them just for you. You didn't have to pull this bitch move", I said raising my voice but luckily not drawing any attention.
"I'm sorry okay. I fucked up and I know you can't forgive me", she said and I walked a way.
I couldn't even look at her without being mad. I had ruined an amazing friendship with Niall all because of my so called best friend being jealous. I fucked up by making those assumptions about Niall. i really fucked up all because of her. She was the one who destroyed something that could have been so good for me. I would've never slept with Harry last night if I would've known Niall didn't say those things.
I walked all the way down to Ms. Fern's room and knocked on her door. I wanted to just walk in but I only saw her eating alone and I wanted harry.
"Hello Daisy. Do you need anything?", she asked her kind voice.
"Yes do you know where Mr. Styles is?", I asked.
"He just left for lunch. Why did you need him?", she asked.
My honest answer would be that I wanted him to cuddle me while I cry and then fuck my brains out but you can't say that to your English teacher.
"I just wanted to talk to him about something personal", I said and sighed. Harry was the only one who could make me feel any better.
"Do you want to talk about it? I'm sure if its a girl problem I can help more than he can. Come on it", she said and walked in to her desk back to her lunch. I sat at a desk close by and decided to talk to her. I didn't have really any mother figure to go home and tell about it so this would be the next best thing. Even if I did decide to get on the phone and call my mom it wouldn't have been a good phone call.
"So, I was hanging out with this guy a lot and Rose got super jealous of him and I so she started this rumor him and I had sex then someone told me he was telling people him and I had sex and the guy and I got in a huge fight", I said," But I didn't know the full story. Rose told me she was the person responsible and now her and I aren't friends."
I assumed she already knew a lot of this because students and teachers talked and gossiped. She probably knew the boy was Niall but I didn't want to put his name in the mix of all this. I also had never said sex so many times in front of a teacher it made me slightly embarrassed.
"Girls can be petty like that but Rose and you have a strong bond so I'm sorry that had to happen", she said," But you shouldn't go back to being her friend. Breaking your trust shouldn't be something so easily forgiven. You could easily become her friend in the future but to easily forgive her would be a mistake on your part."
"Yeah I don't think I want her in my life. I feel so betrayed I have no one else", I said and felt tears come to my eyes. I was more worried about being alone than not having her around anymore. To feel lonely in school all the time like I have no friends is the worst feeling.
"You have the boy. I know this boy you are talking about and I know if you explained the situation to him he would be willing to be your friend", she said and I smiled. She was right about that. If I explained myself to Niall there was a good chance he would forgive me. He was so understanding and easy going that I shouldn't be worrying about him in the moment
"He said he was wrong about me and he hates me now. I don't know", I said and a tear fell onto my cheek.
"Oh daisy, don't cry. Boys come and go. Friends come and go. It is going to be alright I can promise you that. You can try with Niall and if he won't accept your apology fuck him. You are a bright, loving, beautiful girl. You will find someone better", she brought me in for a hug and I kept crying, staining her shoulder with my tears. She rubbed my back reminding me of my mom.
"Thank you", I whispered into her ear. I hadn't a mother or father figure in my life as a constant in such a long time. Her motherly advice made me feel normal and at home. I thought i needed harry but it was nice to get a girls advice on my life. To think I could depend on someone other than Rose, Niall, or Harry really excited me and made me feel like I was normal.
"Daisy", Harry said and I immediately broke the hug with Ms. Fern and looked over at him,"Are you okay?"
"Harry", Ms. Fern said," Would you be a doll and drive Daisy home. Shes had a long day."
