𝐑𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄 ෆ 𝘬𝘯𝘺 𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘵𝘴

𖦹 𝐒𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐌𝐈 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐀𝐙𝐔𝐆𝐀𝐖𝐀 ᝰ 𝘴𝘢𝘶𝘥𝘢𝘥𝘦

༺ saudade ༻

(n.) a nostalgic longing to be near again to something or someone that is distant, or that has been loved and the lost; "the love that remains"

✎ᝰ warnings: swearing, angst, mentions of death, blood, arguments, talks of marriage, female pronouns are used, manga spoilers, grammar mistakes & typos. (childhood friends to lovers trope).

✎ᝰ synopsis: you and sanemi were the definition of 'young love' you were basically glued to each other, told and did everything together, however, during one night, sanemi had gone missing and you were forced to believe he was dead and forced to move on, yet those 'childish' feelings had never vanished no matter how many men your mother brought into your life, you simply wanted him.

✎ᝰ writers note: keep in mind this is the 1900s there really wasn't any 'dating' back then they just went straight into marriage, so I'm kinda going base on that.

✎ᝰ information:
╰┈➤ female + human reader. angst + fluff.

ᰔᩚ requested by: @orasen

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If there's one thing that Sanemi doesn't know about you is that you're in love with him. But you know, or assume that he would never accept your proposal.. well.. more like accept you as his wife. That's what hurts the most to you. You want to spend your last days with— it might sound silly, but you can't see yourself with another man, it's just not him. There was no one like your friend, no one isn't as good as him.

Sanemi has a good heart, and that's what you love about him. He's not only kind to you but he's kind to his family, the old people in the village, he's respectful and well behaved. He's everything you want in someone, he's the one you want. And if you were to tell him how you feel, it could ruin the friendship you have built with him.

So, you stay silent and hope that these childish feeling's perish into thin air. You don't want to lose him. You rather see him with someone else than lose him as a friend. And that's what hurts you the most, it's seeing him with another woman.

But, you're always ecstatic when he comes and visits your mother's bakery.

"I got these for you." Sanemi hands you poorly picked flowers, one flower was tipped due to its stem being damaged, it made your heart flutter, you carefully took the flowers into your own and admired them, even though they were a bit ruined. "Sorry, Genya accidentally stepped on them." He glared at the black haired boy who huffed through his nose and glanced elsewhere.