Secret

1.Mile - First moment

It just me and my family. Celebrating my mom birthday at Singapore.  All my family members are here. Its quite risky but I trust my man and grandpa. I casually walk to the hotel lobby waiting for my friends. I have enough fun with my family so now I am planning to enjoy my holiday with my close friend.

Sorry, someone said politely when he unintentionally hit me. Sorry, he said again when I dont response to him but look at him without blinking.  Are you okay, he ask me. Are you okay bright, a very beautiful girl come to us. He nod and look at me. Sorry, the girl said sweetly. I look at the boy face once again and nod before leave both of them.
I cant help but turn to both of them back who now running happily leaving the hotel and go to their friends.

What are you looking at, apo ask.
Where everyone else, I ask him back ignore his question. Who make mile the great look flustered he ask again. Stop it lets go, I said . Apo just laugh and follow me with small laugh. It was a happy vacation but I seem cant forget the boy who hit me last few days.  What wrong apo ask me. I think I like a boy I said.  Apo look at me scarely. No, I am loyal to my fiance he said dramaticly.  Crazy, I said and push him in the pool. Apo just laugh loud and ask me. Who is the one.
I don't know, he have a girlfriend I said. Apo look at me with wide eyes. I can accept anything but breaking others relation is big no, apo said firmly.  I rolls my eyes. I am not crazy, he just make me confirm with my sexuality.  I never felt like that to anyone, I said. Should I be more careful now, what if you fall for me , he ask me seriously.  Before I start kicking him, he run for his life. Keep it a secret, I said.  Apo just keep swimming but I know I can trust him.

It's already months after I meet the boy that make my heart beating fast. Honestly I want to treat him as a crush and forget about him.  But that stupid apo come to me running with his phone. It's him right , he ask me. Who, I ask him back. Your crush, apo said loudly. I nearly punch him. What crush, bible ask while looking at his laptop.  It brush, apo said and chuckle.  Luckily bible dont take it serious and continue his work.
It's him, apo said again. I still remember his sweet smile, apo said. Its really annoying when you have a bodyguard aka your bestfriend who have good memory. I cant lie to him. I look at his phone. What is this, I ask apo. It's the new series which is talk of the town right now. Not only here but all over the world , apo said. Really,  I ask apo. What is BL I ask apo. Are you for real , apo ask me annoyingly.  I look at him firmly showing him I really dont know about this BL. Its boy love, apo said. And, I ask apo back. Its love between same gender apo said.  Its a new genre apo said again.  Do we have that here, I ask apo . Boss, we have a few series which is famous but this one is phenomenal ,apo said again. It's really him right, apo ask again.  I just look at the series poster.  It's him, but this picture dont give justice to his look, I said.  Now it apo turn to rolls his eyes. So, apo ask me. What so, I ask him. What is your plan, apo ask him. No plan, like you said , I will never purposely destroy good relation I said slowly.  But boss, he is the alpha apo said. Really, why the omega look more masculine , I ask apo. He even taller , I said again. Listen my dear boss. High or size does not decide their roles,  apo try to explain. No , he can't be the alpha if he have same gender relation,  I said firmly. His partner will never be the omega, I said again. Boss let me remind you, both of them are actors, your crush even have a girlfriend and his partner used to have girlfriend. They just act as boy in love, apo said clearly. That really make me think hard. What if he dont like a boy and only attracted to a girl. His Current girlfriend are hot and beautiful. How could I did not consider about that.  I think my first crush will be remain as crush. There is no way he will love me I said in my heart. You are right, I said to apo. Lets go, I said. I need to handle issue in underworld. 

I keep living like usual. At young age I was responsible to handle our family business.  Being a young leader for both up world and underworld is not easy.
To continue the legacy are not easy. My grandpa are too good and legendary.  Since my mom is his only child, I dont have choice but to become the next leader. There is no way I will put both my parent in this situation. I want them to have happy and easy life. I was trained since I was 2 years old. I never have a normal life like other kids. It's always about maintaining the power and what not. At least I am more fortunate compare to my cousin I call big bro. He have no choice but to be our family guardian. Living underworld and become powerful to make sure our family legacy continue. I cry when he was separated from me when I was 10 years old. After his 18 years birthday big bro never be seen in up world again. I cry and scare because I was with him since I was 2. He is the one who are with me when I was cry and hurt. I really need him . At my 15th birthday,  I start rebelling and demand to see him. I fight with everyone until big bro come to see me. He , himself beat me near to death but I know his eyes. Its his duty to make sure I am on the right track. When everyone leave me at the dungeon,  big bro secretly come to see me. He make me promise to be the strongest leader so that no one can beat me like this again. Everyone are waiting for my down fall.
He also make me believe,  that he will always by my side and ask me to not be scare. He will back me up in any situation. He is the one who make me believe I am the best leader because at 15 me and my team are better than adult.

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