Secret

3.Mile - Moment

At first my family object my decision to get involved in the entertainment industry and become an actor myself. But like big bro said, whenbI am competence and strong enough, I can ignore any objection. Except for apo, all my team also confuse with my decision. They just trust me and my decision. Apo is the only person in the world who know the reason why I start living a double life. Honestly it's not easy.

How is he , I ask apo while checking on document . He meet great partner, apo said. That make me look at apo. I mean on screen partner. That bunny guy really accept him as who he is. He even play hero behind his back , apo said.  He also attract too many alpha, apo said again. Since he act in this genre it cant be help but what happen to him is too much. Everyone are trying to concurred him and will become the best and can stand proud if they manage to get this beuatiful alpha. He is easy target because of his background. But the most funny things is, he oblivious with his surroundings,  he thought he is the alpha and treat all of them as a friend. Luckily that bunny play a good role as his protector. There is situation where my man can't be close to him like in his event or in his company.  I only can protect him from far. I still cant show myself and make it obvious.

You should grab this chance, apo said excitedly. What chance , I ask him casually. Event I give protection and backup, I never ask or expect for anything from him. I really do it because I love and want to protect him. Since he is happy with his life, I just look from his side and become his guardian.  Not more than that.  I think he break up with his girlfriend , apo said.  Why, I ask apo. Maybe his girlfriend can't accept his sudden fame and felt uncomfortable with his toxic fans,  apo said. Its also because of that stupid issue apo said again. Its just stupid issue , but his fans can accept it and start boycotting him, apo said. Should we help him, apo ask. No need, I said. I am opportunist, I see it as a chance. What I need to do is to make sure all his brand and project not be cancel by anyone. Its felt like miracle by his fans and himself because its not a small matter for rising star like him. If you have no power enough, you can say good bye to your career.  Boss, this is te right time. He is in valuable conditions. Apo said again. During his black moment you  should go and become his light , then he will accept your holy love, apo said dramaticly.  I just ignore apo and look at his appology video with his sad eyes.

Am I being selfish now ,I ask myself. But I cant help because my feeling toward him become deeper and bigger. I become greedy and opportunist.  While me being in this hard emotion, come another challenge. It's unexpected and
the worst part is, me and my team also become the talk of town. Its make my life more difficult. Luckily I can control my schedule and choose any work I want.  We never imagine this scenario.  Its beyond our control. We suddenly have so many fans and followers. For now I still look at his back and being Invisible. current situation make is harder to approach him like normal people.

Look at his partner,  he is getting weird I said. No, he is not, apo said. Trust me , I said. I know his eyes are changed now, I said again. So what, apo ask. He is single and so do bright and nothing is wrong if he like bright , apo said cruelly.  I know he want to push me to approach and try to court bright like normal people. But I really cant. I just can stay behind his back for this moment.  Check on him, I said again before ready for my cat spa day. I will meet his mom. It's sound funny but it's really hard to be her cat spa friend.  At first she was suprised but after I keep talking and being polite to her, we become friend. She treat me like her son. He keep talking about his cat and his son. I felt close to him because I hear it from his mother.  Call me  failure but that the best I can do. Sometime I need to hide when he accompany his mom. Imagine staying In the car and look at him playing with cats. Me , I dont even love cats. The only cat I love is him.  He is my favorite kitten.

I am on my way to my office after our event. Its very busy week for me for both world. After refresh and just start getting ready to work, suddenly my man who are appointed to keep him safe give me a emergency call. With my casual look, I run to him. Boss, he was brought to this room and he is drunk my man said. I know the culprit already been beated and what not but my man too scare to touch my kitten. I quickly get into the hotel room. He look so waste. What happen baby, I ask him gently.  But he just sleep and unconcious.  Win, he suddenly moaning with difficulty. Win help me, he ask for help desprately. Its okay , dont be scare I said slowly. Win, where is win , he ask again and again. I have no choice and slowly hug him. He is soft type. With gentle hug and soft comforting word he will fall a sleep. Unfortunately he will forget everything on the next day. Its you again, he said and smile with his close eyes. I know you will come he said and mumbling. I love your smell he said again.  Really, I ask him like usual. His body must remember my hugs and smell that why he felt comfortable and felt safe. I have been doing this for years. He did not reply to me but snuggling close to my chest. Dont worry baby, I wont let that bastard go. No one can touch you. How come you drink when metawin is not around. You should constrain yourself, I said slowly. You will get good scolding tomorrow by metawin, I said and kiss his head. Lets go, I said and gently lift him up.  I carefully bring him to my car. All the way to his apartment I cant stop looking at his beautiful face. Then, at his room I gently change his cloth. Call me pervert but I really look at every inch of his body. Maybe I know it better than himself . I slowly touch his face with my middle finger and slowly touch his face chest and abs. I really need to cotrol my self. He is so tempting. I quickly go the his bathroom to release myself. I need to calm myself before I make a regretful mistake. I am sorry baby, said after change his cloth. I slowly kiss his lips and then make him comfortable.  After being wipe and clean he now look like sleeping baby. Stop it win, he said and push me away. Its me , not win I said slowly. Hurmmm , he reply and continue sleeping soundly. Take care baby , I said and kiss his forehead before I leave him.
Guard his door, I said to my man and slowly leave his apartment.  I lean on my car sit and close my eyes. Its painful but this is the moment that I felt closest to him.

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