You're Mine

DIARY

[Ajax's Diary]

Tuesday, 23rd November.

4:01 pm

Dear diary,

I saw him again today. He looked my way and smiled. I smiled back, but it turned out he was looking at someone behind me. Why didn't he notice me? I tried my hardest to look good today. He should've seen me. Maybe I was the one he made a weird face at. Why would he do that? I want him so badly, but he doesn't even know me. How do I get to know him so he doesn't think I'm weird?

Wednesday, 24th November.

3:52 pm

Dear diary,

I held the door open for him today. He walked past me with some girl. Neither of them thanked me. That girl's lack of manners makes me sick. She's always been that way. Zhongli isn't like that. She must be rubbing off on him, trying to make him like her. I would never treat him that way. I would treat him so much better. If only he noticed me. I'm better than that girl. I'll show him.

7:38 pm

I've been thinking, why don't I just remove her from the picture? She doesn't deserve him. She's a whore who thinks dating someone makes her cool. What an idiot. You know, she even asked me out a couple of weeks ago. He doesn't deserve somebody like that. Zhongli deserves me. I deserve him. I will take her out of his life. He doesn't need her.

Thursday, 25th November.

3:46 pm

Am I going insane? What did I just do? I pushed that girl off the roof. Someone will have seen me. But who could it have been? Will they tell someone? I hope they don't. I'm doing this for Zhongli. He would want me to do this. Would he want me to do this? I want to do this. Should I leave a note and stage it as a suicide? Maybe I should. Yes, I will. It's the only way. I'm doing this for him. Only for him. I can't regret this. She didn't deserve to live, anyway. She'd just break Zhongli's heart. I can't let her hurt him. I had no choice but to hurt her. It's all for Zhongli.

I think.

10:18 pm

I can't stop thinking about it. What if Zhongli knows it was me? He wouldn't, right? No-one would tell him. Even if someone saw me, he wouldn't be the first one they'd tell. He won't find out. I'm just deluding myself and going crazy. I'm okay. Nothing will go wrong.

Saturday, 27th November.

11:31 am

Dear diary,

He spoke to me yesterday. He was looking for that whore. He won't find her. I snuck into school and left a note there. The police thought it was a suicide. I'm the last on their list. I'm not in her crowd. Maybe this won't go downhill, after all. I can get away with this; it'll be easy. If I just push them all off the roof, it might work. But then, they're going to see a trend and know there's a killer. I can't do that. No. They can't find out. I have to do something else. But what else can I do? I can't straight up stab someone on school grounds. What about after school? Wait, that might work. I could lead them somewhere after school and kill them all. It's going to be so easy. Zhongli could actually be mine.

Monday, 29th November.

3:57 pm

Dear diary,

Some other girl was clinging to him today, with her filthy hands. She's a whore too. Lord knows how many dicks those hands have touched. I bet Zhongli was disgusted. I'll do him a favour. I'll just kill her. She's stupid, anyway. She won't suspect a thing. I could get to her through a friend. Or maybe I'll send her a message saying I need to return something of hers that she dropped today. I could even ask her to drop by my house for something. Then I'll kill her. I'll enjoy every moment of it. And no-one will know. No-one will see. She'll be in my house. I can hide her. The police will never know. This is all going too perfectly. Maybe too perfectly. Who knew it would be so easy to rid of people? The thrill is too good. The nerves I feel when I think of what he would say makes me want to do this even more. Would he love me for this like I love him? Maybe he would.

8:24 pm

The job is done. She's rotting underground. She won't bother anyone anymore. Zhongli must be pleased. He deserves better than those scum. I'll get rid of them all. I'll exterminate them like pests. I'll keep him safe. He only needs me. I only need him. We're perfect for each other. I'm going to talk to him tomorrow. I'll offer him my condolences. I'll try to make conversation and ask him on a date. He might say no. But that's okay. I'll convince him to say yes.

Tuesday, 30th November.

5:12 pm

He agreed to 'hang out' with me. I think he's just looking for a distraction from the death, but that's okay for me. He looked so beautiful today. The way he tucked his hair behind his ear. His voice is melodic. I could listen to it for hours. His face is perfectly sculpted. He's everything I've ever wanted. I won't stop until he's mine. He has no choice. I'm the only one who will be there for him. I will never leave him. I'm his best option. We're inevitable.

9:18 pm

We talked for a while over messenger. The way he texts is so cute. If only we weren't disturbed by one of his friends. How dare he interrupt us. His tone of voice makes it obvious that he likes Zhongli. It's disgusting. He must learn his place. I'll help him in doing so. I'll teach him some manners and leave him to sink in a lake. Who would think to search in there? The only evidence will be the body. Zhongli is so close to being mine. He will love me. He must love me, because I love him. I'm his perfect match. Nothing will come between us.

Monday, 6th December.

12:28 pm

Dear diary,

I messed up.