Sometimes ...

My parents

I like my parents, I really do. But sometimes they say things to me that are just hurtful.

My mother said so many heartbreaking things to me about my self-harm. She yells at me or says really unreassuring things to me. Not long ago, she discovered that I had started to sh again. She told me that I disappointed her, that people had it worse than me. But I think the most hurtful thing she said to me was, "Do you want to cut yourself? Because I'm going to cut you, not just cuts."

Sometimes she comments on my body, especially my face. I've had pimples on my face since I was 10 but they never go away because I scratch them too much. She tells me every time, "stop touching them, you'll get scars and it will ruin your face." She never understands that I don't do it on purpose. I scratch them without realizing it or when I'm stressed. Even sometimes I can't help but touch them. I feel too ugly.

Also when we eat. I don't like much about food. Sometimes she makes comments to me like, "You only like sweets anyway." or “aren’t you tired of eating all the time?” I feel too fat every time. My dad also makes comments sometimes, but for him it's just for fun.

There are still lots of things they tell me but it would take too long to say them all. But they are also nice. We do activities and lots of things like that.