a journal? i guess

long awaited call

Hello guys, i want to tell you about something i am really nervous about:

So, in January 2023 so 1 year ago, i found my interest in the kpop-boygroup BTS. almost a month later i had found a friend in the fandom. 

I met her online and shes not from my country, so we never really spoke to each other till this day. But i suggested to call in the winter break and she said she was happy i asked.

Anyways, so tomorrow is THE day, and we are going to call and speak with each other for the first time not through texting. 

The thing that makes me nervous is: 

1. neither of us is a firstlanguage-english-speaker so i am really feared of the fact that she maybe has a strong accent or smth and i cant understand her or the other way around.

2. i never really talked to someone in english in reallife. yes, i take some classes in english and my english is pretty good but when it comes to speaking i always get really nervous and sometimes forget so many words.

3. WHAT IF SHES A SCAMMER. i mean yeah, there is a very low chance she isnt her considering the instagram photos she and some of her friends posted

yeah, think this was all i wanted to say, but i am still very nervous and scared, what if we dont know what to talk about and theres an awkward silence