elements of nature.

what ive done.

Liliana's P.O.V.

As everyone stares at me in shock and confusion. My eyes land on Zane. I can sense the hurt in him. But no... It cannot be... guilt. No I will not accept him.. Anyone being guilty of treating me differently because I have a disorder. I want people to treat me for me. Not because I am different.

I look away from everyone as I open my pocket and take out a few pills. I pop them in my mouth and swallow. "Happy?" I ask Sensei Wu. "Yes." He says. I sigh. "You can stop staring now." I say as everyone looks away. Kai goes to open his mouth when I put my hand up to silence him. "I need to say something before any of you speak. Just because I have this... Disorder doesn't mean I am any different from you... So dont treat me better or feel guilty. I did the things I did and do in life no because I dont have much choice when I turn gaga. But I do them because I am human and we all make mistakes. You may hate me for what I've done and I do not blame you for doing so. If the rolls were switched I would probably hate me to.. I do hate me. But what I did was my choice and no one elses. I admit and made mistakes. Yes it would be great if things would go back to normal but I know that wont happen. I am who I am and this is a part of me. Do not treat me different then others because I have this sickness. Treat me for me not for this other part of me. I will most likely never forgive myself for what i've done. And thats how it is going to stay. Whether you choose to go and forgive me or not is all on you and no one else. Just like it was my choice to cheat on Zane. It was my choice to kiss back or not. It was MY choice if I wanted to take my pills or not. It was my choice to come here. It was my choice to cut my ankle. What wasn't my choice was to have this disorder. What wasnt my choice was what gender I am. I may have had bad luck with love. But I know my feelings. And Zane.."

Zane looks at me. I get up and start to walk away. I turn around and look at Zane for the last time. "I will always, always love you. But I might not always be here. " I say before turning back around and leaving. A small tear escapes my eye and rolls down my cheek and lands on my shirt. I wipe the wetness off my face and walk out of the monastery. As I walk I feel a presence but ignore it. My nightmares replay in my head. And I think over what i've done.

Why did I have to cheat on Zane? Why did I have to kiss Jay? Why does Jay have to like me? Why was I.... Wait... I spun around quickly and see no one. But I feel a presence. I glare, looking around me. Nothing but silence and trees. I sigh. Then I hear a stick snap. I focus on the forest. "What's going on?" I whisper to myself. I feel eyes on me, I know someone is near. But I act normal and slowly walk away. Keeping my senses alert. I walk towards the bridge I tried to drop off. Once on it I sigh, I feel a hand clasp my mouth and another across my waist. I start to panic and the water starts to rush to my aid. It rises and I bite the person holding onto my mouth. I then kick them where no one should be kicked and spin around. A fist lands on my face and I stumble backwards. I am about to get back up when something hits the back of my head and I black out.

"Bring the stupid girl back to the master. I shall make sure Wu knows his precious student is taken." An evil voice says. Wait do they not know that I am Wu's daughter? Then I pass out.

(Now it is done! XD Sorry it took so long)