Finally Clean || Seungmin FF

If Not Me Than For You

🎵: I don't understand but I luv u ~ Seventeen
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Seungmin
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This is torture. I can't see her it's driving me crazy. They took her back 5 hours ago, Chan is pacing the floor. Everyone else is trying to stay calm but failing. Jeongin is crying in the corner as Changbin is next to him. Felix is sitting next to where im currently standing. Hyunjin next to Felix.

I wish she could see all the people that cared about her. So many damn people.

Minho walked through the door, Jisung not far behind him. Chan turned but didnt dare move anymore. Minho didnt say anything but just walked up to me.

"They allow 2 visitors." He said looking at me in the eyes. "You're one of them" he stated.

The shock on my face was clear.

"She care's about you, as do you care about her. Jisung recommended you go in with me."

I looked at Jisung as he just shook his head yes, then i looked at everyone else.

"She's in the room down the hall to the left," Minho stated.

"Thank you" I said running out the room down the hall.

I walked into the room. She looked so peaceful, lying there in the hospital bed. Her wrists were  wrapped, it pained me to see it.

I pulled up a chair, and sat next to her carefully putting my hand into hers.

"I love you too, Angel" I spoke, I never got to say it back before she passed out in the car.

Flashback
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"I Love You" She spoke.

"I- Y/N?" I felt her grip loosen on my hand and her body go limp. "CHAN SHE'S UNCONSCIOUS! CHAN PLEASE HURRY"

I was in a dyer state of panic, I can't lose her.

We arrived at the hospital and they took her back, they offered me new clothes since my current ones were covered in her blood.

'This is why she loved red paint so much' I thought to myself.

Red Paint.

Fuck You, Red Paint.

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Present
I sat there looking at her, admiring every single thing about her face. She's just so perfect, even while in pain.

Pain.

I wish I could make it go away. I wish I could help her realize just how much life is worth living if you have the right people in your life.

I laid my head on my arm that was on the bed. Looking at her. She looks so peaceful.

"I love you too, Y/N" I said once more before closing my eyes.

It was 2 in the morning at this point and I wasn't sleeping until I knew she was ok.

She's not, but I can sleep a little now that she's in my grasp.

"Please wake up," I told her before fully closing my eyes and dozing off.

Minho
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I walked into her room. I had finally convinced everyone to go home. I walked in to see Seungmin asleep beside Y/N. Holding her hand as tight as his sleeping body would let him.

I couldn't help but smile. She deserves to be happy. Just once in her life at least, and with Seungmin she seemed to have that.

I sat in the other open chair not occupied by the sleeping boy and looked out the window. The city was still completely lit up despite it being almost 3 now.

I couldn't sleep, what if something happened? 

I heard shuffling in the room, checking my phone is was 6:30. Damn time passed. I looked up expecting Seungmin to say something but it wasn't.

"Y/n?" I spoke softly looking at the now awake girl who was softly admiring, Seungmin.

"How long has he been here?" She spoke still holding her hand out.

"He brought you here, Never left the waiting room once until I came and got him, he came straight here and hasn't left since." I responded. Her face was shocked completely.

"Look Y/N, I know you're scared of getting hurt after everything you've been through, but Seungmin cares. He cares so much. I've known him for 5 Years and he's never once cried like the way he cried when he found you, or when they took you back. He cried in Hyunjin's arms for 2 hours." I responded. "I know you care about him too, I can see it in your eyes when you look at him." 

"I don't want to hurt him, look what i've already caused." She responded tears now forming in her eyes. "I can't stay clean, it's hurting everyone around me."

"I know you want to though, that's what's really important. Keep trying. Seungmin, me, Jisung, everyone will be there to support you."

She sighed, She looked at Seungmin.

"He's such a peaceful sleeper, It's hard not to love him when he's just so damn perfect."

love?

"How long have you loved him?" I asked.

"Since I was 12."

"You've known him since you were 12?"

"Remember me telling you about that boy that saved me from Analisa's brother?" she asked.

I just shook my head, I still wanted to kill the bastard and his little sister for hurting her.

"Well, He doesnt know I know, but, he's the boy." She smiled looking at him and pushing his hair out of his face.

"Really?" I asked. How does fate work so well?

"Mhm" She hummed in response just admiring the sleeping blonde.

"I'm ready to get clean Minho, If not for me than for him." She spoke.

"Then I will do whatever it takes to help you do that."

"Please wake up my love," Y/N spoke tapping Seungmin on the cheek.

"hm?" He said trying to fully wake up, "Y/N! You're awake!" he realized and jumped up hugging her.

"Hi!" She replied smiling big at him, But then her face dropped. "I'm sorry"

"Don't be sorry, blame the bitch who yelled at you." He replied.

"Right, none of this is your fault" I added.

She just smiled.

"Im going to get clean," She said. "If not me than for you."