Finally Clean || Seungmin FF

Ran and Found.

🎵: Motion Sickness ~ Phoebe Bridgers

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I never understood why the universe decided to fuck with people. Like why can't we all just live peacefully happy lives, growing old with no worry in life whatsoever.

Was that to much to ask for?

Apparently.

Because here I sit as my brother tells me the real reason my parents left Japan early, not because they were home sick and not because my mother found out I was self harming. No it was much worse than that.

"You might wanna sit down Y/N" Minho spoke as he hung his jacket on the coat rack by the front door. He and Jisung had just entered the house and I made my way down the stairs, Seungmin following behind.

"What's wrong?" I asked as i sat at the kitchen Island.

Jisung looked as if he had been crying. Something was seriously wrong.

Minho sighed, he seemed to be debating his words. "Mom and Dad didn't come back because they found out about you," he finally spoke after what felt like forever of silence. He looked at his boyfriend with worried eyes, then he looked at Seungmin as if telling him through his eyes what had happened.

"Then what happened?" I asked seemingly the only one left confused.

Silence.

"HELLO?"

"The lady from the restaurant," He spoke finally.

"The bitch who yelled at me?" I questioned. He just shook his head yes. "What about her?"

"She was a friend of dad's," he said looking at the ground. "Mom didn't know about her... until the day before they came home. They came home to sign papers, mom was leaving."

Everything proceeded in my head to quickly.

"No." I spoke.

"Y/N i'm sorry." Minho spoke.

"No!" I screamed. "Dad would never, he was an asshole but he wouldn't do that to mom," I yelled.

"Y/N there's messages.." Jisung finally spoke.

I stood up from my seat. Seungmin tried to hug me.

"Leave me alone." I spoke.

He stepped back, he looked hurt. My now boyfriend of only a few hours looked more hurt than ever.

I looked at him and turned around, racing for the door. I ran out the house and down the street.

I ran until I was at the cemetery, standing at the grave of my once father, buried next to my mother.

"Loving father and husband" his tombstone read.

"How could you?" I mustered from my tears, "She loved you, she did EVERYTHING FOR YOU!"

I clasped on my knees at his grave, "YOU BASTARD." I was screaming and crying.

"You Bastard," I repeated over into the tombstone as if he could actually hear me.

two arms wrapped around me and pulled me back from the grave, two familiar arms.

"How could he?" I asked now looking at the sky as i laid back into the arms of my boyfriend.

"It's going to be ok Y/N" he spoke kindly.

how could he still be so nice? after me yelling at him and leaving him there with no explanation. How did he find me?

"It is though? Both of my parents are dead because my father decided to cheat on my mother, and why? Who fucking knows." I spoke stealing my breath and wiping my nose on my sleeve.

"You can't control other people my love" he whispered. His voice was so calming it never failed to calm me down when he was around.

"I hate him," I spoke, "I never liked him when i was growing up but now, now i hate him"

"And that's ok," he spoke. "You're allowed to have feelings, you just need to express them instead of hiding them."

"I never had anyone to tell them to.. so i always found.. other sources," I spoke, now looking at my mother's grave, there was a picture of me, her and Minho on it, the picture was taken when i was around 12 or 13 and it was my mothers favorite photo, my father wasn't in it because he had to work, but looking back i wonder if my mother knew longer than she admitted.

"Well, you have someone now," he spoke in interrupting my thoughts.

I looked up at him and he smiled. It took everything in me not to tell this boy I loved him, I don't care if you say 'That's moving to fast isn't it?' i still loved him, more than i've ever loved anyone.

his phone rang causing us to break eye contact, "It's Minho," he spoke answering the phone and putting up to his ear.

It was muffled I couldn't exactly hear what my brother was saying. Seungmin just hummed in response and spoke on 3 words the whole 6 minute phone call.

"I found her."