Miss My Husband ✅

Chapter 17

I gently pushed him when I felt the warmth of his body. I don't know and I have no idea what's going on in his mind right now and I don't know why I feel this way every time he's around.

"Am I a bad kisser?" He asked weakly. feeling
My whole face turned red at what he said.

"N-No, I'm just shocked." I almost whispered an answer. He didn't speak and just stared into nothingness and so did I. For several minutes no one spoke between the two of us until he couldn't take it anymore and broke the deafening silence.

"I was miserable the moment you left." He said in a low voice. I bit my lower lip because I felt the familiar pain that I felt before.

"I don't know what I am going to do with my life, how I will continue my life without you. I don't eat and the only thing in my stomach is alcohol. I was even sent to hospital because of ulcer and fatigue and I almost died in pain. You know what? I wished that I would just die or that he would just take me because you are no longer in my life. I waited for you to come back then. When I left the hospital, I was still full of alcohol. I was full of bar, and I even cheated on you. I asked myself if I really betrayed you if you were the one who left. Every night, I shared my bed with different women. Different women, but your face I see them. I waited for you to come back to me, I waited for you to say that you were just joking about what you said before. I waited for you Nini, and I waited for nothing. Until one time I tried to commit suicide, I am that stupid
because of you Mommy immediately rushed me, so I survived. But when I woke up, I immediately looked for you. You risk coming back to me." I couldn't help but cry.

I feel that what he said is slowly destroying me. I stopped myself then from running to him because I knew I would hurt him again. I stopped myself even though I really wanted to see him.

"That day, I also woke up that you were really gone. I woke up that I needed to live without you, I needed to continue my life without you, I needed to be strong even though you were my strength, that I needed stand up for being Manoban. I Focused myself in the company, that I almost never come home because of work. I wanted you to know that I can live without you. But you know what is the worst part of my story?" I saw tears fell down in his cheeks.

"When I saw you, I lost everything I worked for. I lost the strength I had saved because I saw you again. I failed, I didn't make it. I still love you." He said to me seriously. I couldn't answer what he said and I could feel the weakness of my body.

He stood up and turned his back on me but before he left he spoke again. "Pack some of your things, we will leave tomorrow."

Is that how I am with you? That I didn't even think about how he would feel when he left hee?

FLASHBACK

I couldn't stop laughing while looking at him. Because his face is full again and he has been pissed off at me for a while now.

"Stop laughing!" He shouted at me angrily.

I stared at him and he was only wearing boxer shorts and I could freely see his body that was really drooling.

"What!" He screamed in annoyance when he saw me looking at him while holding back laughter.

"Why are you angry? You're so sexy! Look at your abs and your butt in the picture is so smooth! My face is overpowered!" I said smiling.

"I don't know about you! It's up to you!" He said angrily.

"Why, you're practicing yelling at me huh! I'm going to pinch you in the groin, Manoban!"

"I'm bored, I'm not happy anymore." He answered.

"We can sell it to gays and on the internet, we'll make a lot of money when they see it! You're so sexy, it's annoying!"