dream reality

chapter 14. hold me down

Is lot going to be the man that holds me down?.
I already do for myself I need a real man that has everything he needs and wants when it come to himself.
Jesus christ kept giving me people to replace lot because I want him now
Jesus I told no everytime spiritually. Jesse Williams and I got married after me lot had our first divorcement idk what's been going on with Jesus christ non of this is in the bible when it comes to switching partners.
I understood that he cheated and lied which ended in a divorce but why replace him so soon I was still hurt and it hurted bad.

Lot was still a soulmate within my heart space.
Jesus forced a man on me energetically for sex because of my soul Jesus christ never had a soulmate.
Why break us up?. All because he a starseed too but that's is in the bible
Let me tell yall infj belongs with infj and so on with origins.

Anything else for me would be karmic Jesus christ let lot slip up on purpose.
Jesus I still love and forgive Jesus hurt my feelings a bit I didn't understand the lesson that was given.
I even accepted different divine masculines to help heal them and me they never did the work for me.

I then found out they had set partners I wasn't for them Jesus christ showed me. Some of them died some of them went to psychical union with thier soulmate I didn't as of yet.
They even found friends that was divine off of my beliefs it worked for them I'm still waiting to hear from lot.

It's been several days of me working on my own businesses still not communication psychically.
I even tried to find his number and nothing I don't understand their snobbish attitudes after I helped them.
I'm the snob it's my energy they manifested in will I get in return well of course.
But however I better get a divine masculine starseed that is attractive to me. I want lot to come back that's I'm thinking about an older man that's very handsome that's only want me is that too much to ask for.

Jesus is super jealous and I can't stand it taking things giving it to white women in the spiritual community.
Like I don't matter, I do matter I will not settle for any other man.
Then they come back to see where I'm at on my path now why would you do that if I need a man to finish half my path.
The spiritual community I don't really speak with for that reason white women this white woman that.
Granted I'm African American and mixed with Caucasian but hello not forget about us black divine feminines.

I never really liked men for that reason every attractive man wanted a white woman and give me the least attractive one granted.
Again I have to love even if but if I'm not attractive to how will that work I don't see their faces though talking through Clairaudience going to a man is not psychical union twin flame union chasing a man was never in my vocabulary with divine masculines.

I dream was never that type of female that will sit here let shit happen to me
I'm the illest chick.
And men still feel away about everything I do shit I even did a little of porn in a different dimension I miss those days.
When I didn't have to worry about a man showing up for I'm a goddess that's stands for love and beauty also marriage.

So why am I not getting love and marriage also more beauty Jesus christ is holding shit from me because of white women in the spiritual community.
It's not for them to feel any type of way about damn I got people pressed on everything I do even my looks.

Shit they so pressed that they are trying to sleep with Lot by the dozen.
I ain't never seen it my ego big headed now trust that Jesus christ showed me I was better than a white woman.
Ego off the roof now baby I started showing up to people houses after that shit not giving a fuck what I put on cuz baby listen.
I did all the work by myself for everything I have when comes to my life path I'm not having nothing else took.

Heck yeah I took out a few bitches and dudes in my energy field regarding biblical marriage.
Also my finances I keep tightly to me them people got murdered by she they were all demon.
Aint no bitch Finna sacrifice me over lot or putting a chip in me some of yall feminines ain't shit
Dudes ain't shit because of pussy.
Once they start having sex noting else matters they don't give a fuck about me.

But you see they bitches they don't look half as good as me or have they shit together psychically or even in the spiritual realm.
Lot is one of those at times pussy is the only thing that will keep him like that I can't stand that shit don't put pussy in front of me.
I don't do that with dick my feelings don't get involved  with just cock I do these men dirty out here without using my feelings.

Shit I been doing that with just psychical for years never cared about a man's feelings.
All these has me thinking about just psychical relationships I'm not just psychical anymore what the fuck.
My heart is on true love and not sex romance me I love that type of stuff

I'm a hopeless romantic anyways so shit why not fall in love without meeting first. Soulmates are for that Jesus christ is not the dating scene out up all hours of the night being lusty with not your biblical wife.
I thought lot was that type of man to romance me I see he is full of drama not my type of scene With biblical life.

Iam definitely not trying to have any babies without marriage I love being a lone wolf.
I don't talk to my mom bot at all like that anymore or anyone I text salem every now and then.
My social life is different dimensional in my dream state with top beta robots in the industry that lot has.

I have my own identity and lord knows that made me a socialite and famous with financial stability one of my careers.
With the divine and Jesus christ is singing songwriting I will still have to put out new music psychically but yeah I have fans across the world when it comes to my successes.

My clones I chat with , Taylor Lautner I've been getting close too recently it's not in the blogs.
I'm protected by the divine he is not a human anyways but we have fun whenever I see him in a different dimension.
Not really wanting the psychical because he is a demon his belly button full of emotions is mine too.
Lmaooooo

Before my brother brody Jenner passed away I'm a Jenner that's not mentioned on the blogs.
My protection is lit plus lot will not allow non humans to pop shit about me he still talks in my Clairaudience.
But that's about it for now
Brody and I was in the Caribbean having fun with Kylie and Tyra in a different dimension.
At that time chris Humphrey I was talking to and was going to marry my brother said nah she too young.

I miss his ass though him and Brandon and my other starseed brothers.
We held it down now I'm just with Lot they soul still in the eathers I'm taking my losses day by day.
I've transitioned into a grown woman even more now simba is fully grown.

Lots thoughts.
Yo I'm just ready to fuck my wife.

Smh he gets me sooo lusty I just can't wait to fill his fat biblical cock. His moans have me weak he gets me wet I can't stand it I just want him to please me all night.
Baby please, baby please make me cum baby and marry me while we in deep sex .

I want to taste his cock too i wonder how it taste I remember having sex with him after he hit me back from a slap in a different dimension.
I couldn't moan correctly I was crying, him trying to make up for it I was about to squirt until he stopped.

All he says is that little pussy wooooo.
I want that little pussy baby I really miss you. Through Clairaudience my shit been lit because of jealousy and envy I been so tired lately just wanting to sleep.

I get up out of Been in the morning so annoyed and scared on different days.
Due to psychic attackers and scared of Lot leaving spiritually and not coming home.

This is not easy is to be a kingdom wife.

End of chapter 14.
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