I just want fucking die I don't know why the fuck I even try. I'll never get anywhere in life, Im an idiot, I have no social skills, Im just a dumb bitch with unrealistic dreams. People say I'm great and they would care if I died but that would only last a bit.
Give it twenty years and everyone will fucking forget about me. I want to run away but I can't because our fucked up world has terrible fucked people. No one will care about me in five years cause Im gonna say some dumb shit and then everyones gonna think Im weird. I've already lost 5 friends this year and I have one left. Sure shes an amazing person but I know damn well Im gonna mess some shit up eventually.
I just want to fucking die, I want to claw my eyes and ears out, I want to grab my razor and cut open every near surface vein on my body, I want to throw up until I can no longer breath I just want to be dead is that to much to fucking ask?
I say I want to move out for university then my dad gets angry, all my family problems are blamed on me then after my dad yells at me the next fucking day he'll pretend all is normal and Im fine. well fun fact fucker ITS NOT ITS FUCKING NOT!
Why do you read so much? BECAUSE I WANT TO FUCKING ESCAPE THIS LIFE IM DORCED TO LIVE DO YOU ACTUALLY THINK I WANT TO BE HERE CAUSE IF YES YOU'RE FUCKING WRONG
If life was a book I have one request for whom ever is writing my story, PLEASE JUST KILL ME OFF THERES NO WAY IM IMPORTANT TO ANY PLOT OTHER THAN TO MAKE OTHERS LOOK BETTER SO PLEASE JUST FUCKING KILL ME OFF OR ILL TAKE MATTERS INTO MY OWN HANDS
