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"I can't do this anymore. I need to leave. I'm quitting the band."
I repeat that over and over. I don't want to fuck up. What will they say?
"I can't do this anymore. I need to leave. I'm quitting the band."
Someone comes down the hall and hears me say that last part under my breath. I don't notice who's there.
"Wh- what?" Brendon asks. Oh, shit.
"Um, w- we need to h- have a band m- meeting." I stutter.
The band sits around a small circular foot rest. I take a deep breath.
"I can't do this anymore."
Spencer snaps his head up.
"I need to leave."
Brendon gasps.
"I'm quitting the band."
There is a silence too long.
Something are just a little too long sometimes. Some silences need to be shorter, to make things less awkward. Some relationships need to be shorter, to make the heartbreak ache less. Some careers need to be shorter, to make other band members feel less pain. I should have done all of these above. But I didn't. I gathered my stuff without saying a word, and started walking out the door. Just before I did, Brendon grabs my shoulder.
"I will always love you." he says.
"Unless my name is Sarah and I have shoulder-length brunette hair and I suddenly have a vagina, you won't." Brendon looks at me confused.
"Ryan." he whispers.
I look at him, and I exit.
What a painful world we live in, with awkward silences, thousands of aching hearts, and 2 broken band members.
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