*Brendon's POV*
Man, life can't get any better. We just released Hallelujah, it's hella successful, Sarah and I hung out with Spencer, my life is at a high right now! I go on my computer, to look at some updated stuff. I quick log into Facebook, singing a little jingle about how I'm typing in my password. I can't contain how happy I am.
Well, my happiness streak ended quickly.
The first thing on my dash is a news article from a Panic! fan account. I read and reread the header over and over again to make sure it's real.
"Former member of Panic! At the Disco, Ryan Ross, Found Dead in an Apartment in California"
I click on the article faster than ever.
"This weekend, former Panic! At The Disco member, Ryan Ross, was found dead in his apartment. The neighbors of Ross smelled something terrible in the room next to them. They went to investigate, and the young woman found Ross in a puddle of his own blood and a shotgun next to him. 'We knew he had been depressed for quite some time, but we never expected it to come to this.' said Jane, the young woman living next door. We still don't know what caused his sudden suicide, but we hope Ross is better off in heaven."
I start crying. No, I start bawling. One of my best friends is now dead. Gone. Forever. Probably because of me. I am the worst person ever. How could I do this to him. I scream. I don't want to talk to anyone. I hear Sarah run into my office.
"Babe, what happened?!" Sarah says quickly.
"Ryan. He's dead! Gone! It's all my fault! I AM THE WORST!" Sarah holds me as I bawl into her shoulder. Then I say the five words I thought I would never say.
"I wish I was dead."
SURPRISE MOTHERFUCKERS YOU THOUGHT YOU SAW THE LAST OF ME
KILL ME IF YOU WANT IDC
OK FOR REAL NOW THIS IS THE END BYEEEEE
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The Very Thought Of You || Ryden Fanfic
Fanfic"You're in shock. Later, the reality will sink in."
