Two of him

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Louis pov: 

My alarm went off at 6:00 am this morning, I woke up and immediately felt dread flow threw my veins. Over the past few weeks, Jax and Rhys have been abusing me at school and its really starting to catch up with me. I've been able to hide it from my brothers pretty well but its getting difficult. 

I slowly get out of bed and get dressed, it takes me a while because of the pain in my side. I finally go downstairs and I walk into the kitchen and see my brothers all in their scrubs making breakfast. No one has noticed me yet so I go over to the bench to gather my stuff for school, eventually Andy says something to me. 

"Morning Bud! How did you sleep?"

I look at him and his smile. "Ok." I really don't feel like talking right now, I'm exhausted an I'm trying to mentally prepare for the beatings I'll receive today. I start to walk out to start heading to school but Scott stops me by blocking my exit. 

"Hold up Buddy, you need to have breakfast first." He says with concern on his face. I haven't been hungry lately, I think it's just because of the beatings. But I'm not complaining because maybe I should lose some weight. Jax and Rhys always call me fat and maybe if I lose weight they will stop hurting me. 

"I'm not hungry. I'll eat at school Scott." I say with frustration. They have been all over me about eating lately and it's getting annoying. 

"Ok bud, I just want to make sure your ok." He says. "Im ok... Im gonna go to school now" I say desperately trying to get out of this conversation. 

"Ok Lou, also don't forget that Harry and Edward are coming over for dinner tonight so don't be late!" Drew says

I blush as he mentions their names. I may have a slight crush on both of them but I know it won't ever go anywhere because they would never ever like anyone like me, I'm too fat and worthless. 

"Ok D" I say to Drew while walking out of the door. 

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At School

"Hey Lou!" my only friend Noah says to me when I walk into the cafeteria for lunch.

"Hey Noah, what's up?" I say while walking over to our usual lunch table and sitting down. "Nothing much, I missed ya yesterday!" Noah and I were supposed to hang out after school yesterday but I canceled because I was in too much pain from my most recent beating from Jax and Rhys. "Yeah sorry about that, my brothers just wanted me home early for some reason" I made up an excuse to him because he doesn't know what they do to me and I want to keep it that way. I don't want anyone to ever find out that I get abused, that would be so embarrassing and it would only make it worse. 

"Its fine I forgive you!" He says in a joking manner. "So how were your classes this morning?" He ask. "Not too bad!" I say truthfully. I don't have any classes with Jax and Rhys in the morning, they are on the other side of the building so they don't see me. The afternoon however is a different story. "How was yours?" I ask Noah. "So Long!" I let Noah tell me about his morning for the rest of lunch. After the bell rings we part ways and I start to head to my Maths class. It was fine until I bumped into Rhys and Jax. I stumble and go to apologize but Jax cuts me off. 

"Watch it Fag! God your fat ass can't do anything right." Jax says. Im used to hearing these type of things from him. Ever since I was 14 I have been openly gay and most people including my brothers have been very accepting of it, everyone accept Jax and Rhys. Which is weird because I'm pretty sure they're in a relationship but I would never ask them because they would only hurt me more.

"S-sorry, I'm so sorry I really didn't see you there!" I stumble over my words because of how nervous I am. 

"You will be sorry!" Rhys says as he shoves me against the wall and punches my ribs over and over again. "S-stop p-please Im so-sorry!" I say begging him to stop. Fortunately, the class bell rings meaning class is starting so they have to stop. 

"Your lucky the bell saved you this time" Rhys says as they walk away. I slowly go to pick my stuff up but I get a sharp pain going through my whole body. "Uggh, shit" I say knowing they have done even more damage. I eventually walk to my class and sit at my desk. 

The rest of the day goes by very slowly until the last bell rings meaning that its time to go home. I started walking outside to look for one of my brothers because they always pick me up from school. I look around with a worried look on my face hoping that Rhys and Jax won't spot me. Luckily they don't and I find Andy's car and hop in the front seat. 

"Hey bud how was school?" He says as I go to put my bag at the front of my feet. "Long" I say, not wanting to relive the events that happened today.

"Same" He says jokingly, "Buckle up Lou" Drew says while pointing to my seatbelt that I have yet to put on. I go to buckle up and once Drew is satisfied he starts driving. "So what do you think of pizza for tonight?" I don't even notice he said anything to me as I look out the window while trying to get rid of the memories. "Lou?" He says while trying to get my attention.

"Huh?" I say now knowing I missed what he asked.

"Pizza, for dinner? How does that sound?" He repeats with a confused look on his face. "Oh yeah that's fine, I'm not fussed on anything." I say knowing that I'm not gonna eat it anyway. 

The rest of the ride is quiet. Once we get home I immediately go up to my room to read. Im in my own world until I hear a knock on my door. "Lou? Dinners ready" A voice that sounds like Drews says. Dinner? But it feels like I just got home. I go to look at the clock and it marked 7:00 Pm. Oh... I didn't even realize how much time passed by. "Ok I'll be down in a sec" I say. I hear Drew head downstairs, and I go to stand up but I get a dizzy spell and stumble a bit. It takes me a while to come out of it but I get there eventually and start to head downstairs. I go to walk into the kitchen and see Andy, Drew, Scott, Harry, and Edward. Shit. I forgot they were coming over tonight, I probably look disgusting. I go to walk into the kitchen and Edward is the first person to notice me.

"Hey kiddo! How are you? I've missed you!" He says with a smile. I've missed him to, because of their work schedules, they aren't around a lot but their rotation just ended so they will be around more. 

"Hi, Im fine, missed you too" I say awkwardly with blush on my face. They make me so nervous I don't know how to react in front of them. "Come and sit bud dinner is ready" Andy says. I go to sit down between Harry and Edward because that the only spot left, when I sit down I wince a bit but I don't think anyone noticed. 

I don't make a move to get any food, hoping they will leave it because Harry and Edward were over but I didn't have any luck. Scott grabs my plate and puts two slices on my plate and hands it back to me. I sigh, worried looks from all of the boys went unnoticed by me. "So Lou, how was school today?" Harry asked. I look at him and get butterflies. "It was ok I guess." I say shyly. "Just ok? Did anything happen?" Edward says. Shit. Was I that obvious? "N-no nothing happened it was just a boring day" I say hoping that it was an ok response. "Ok kiddo just wondering." Edward says while exchanging looks with the rest of the boys. I'm so confused but I don't say anything. 

After 10 or so minutes the boys have finished eating but I haven't even touched my food. "Lou, Kiddo can you please have a few bites of your pizza?" Andy says. I look at the pizza with a disgusted look, I'm really not hungry and the smell of the pizza is making me nauseous. "I'm not hungry Andy, can I please be excused?" I look at him with my begging eyes. Andy sighs and responds. "Sure bud". 

I immediately take the chance to go upstairs and head to my room. Once I get there I take a quick shower then change into my pajamas and head straight to bed while dreading the day I have tomorrow. 

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Hi Loves!!! I really hope you enjoyed the first chapter! I know it was a little short but I will try to make the next one longer. I hope you have a great day!!<3

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