Two of him

5

Louis pov: 

I am woken up by Drew's voice. 

"Lou buddy it's time to get up, dinners ready," He says

I groan I don't want to eat, but I especially don't want to talk about my panic attack with the boys. I know the second I walk down there they are going to force me to eat and then talk. 

"I'm not hungry" I say while putting a pillow over my head.

"Kid you have to eat, Andy's orders." Drew says. 

"Drewwwww" I beg

"Not a chance buddy, if you don't come downstairs Andy is going to come up here and I know you don't want that to happen" Drew says with a sympathetic smile on his face

"Ugh" I say while getting out of bed. Drew and I leave my room and we start walking down the stairs to the kitchen. I feel his hand rest on my lower back. We enter the kitchen and I see Scott, Andy, Harry, and Edward. Shit. I thought they left, there was no way I was going to sit through this. 

"Well, this has been super fun. I am going to go now." I say

I feel Drew tighten his grip on my waist so I can't leave. I also see Edward walk over to us. I continue to try to get out of Drew's grip but it's no use, I know I'm not strong enough to leave. 

"Hey Darling, let's just sit down okay? We don't have to talk yet" Edward says softly

I nod at him, he looks at me and smiles. He reached his hand out for me to take and I did. Edward leads me to the table, I sit between Harry and Edward and Andy is at the front of the while Drew and Scott are across from me. We all sit in silence for a few minutes until Andy starts to speak.

"Lou bud I know you know that we have to talk about what happened" He says

I just look down not wanting to engage in this conversation. 

"Love I know this is hard but there is clearly something bigger than English that was upsetting you." Harry says

I hate that Harry and Edward are seeing me like this. I feel like a burden to everyone for acting like this. 

"Look I promise everything is fine I just got overwhelmed with all of it, I'm ok now I promise" I say while putting on a fake smile so I can convince them. 

I see the boys look at each other, it is almost like they are having a conversation with their eyes. 

"Ok kiddo we believe you, we just worry sometimes" Andy says 

"I know but there is nothing to be worried about. I promise I'm perfectly fine" I say while looking at Edward

"Ok Darling" He says

"Now, let's get some food in you, all of that earlier must have been draining so we need to get your energy back up!" Scott says

I agree and eat about half of my dinner, I know that I can just throw it up later.

After I finish I told them that I need to use the bathroom and I threw up everything I had in my stomach. I feel dizzy but in control. Once I finish I go back to the table and sit down while everyone else is finishing. 

After dinner, the boys start cleaning up while Edward and Harry lead me to the couch in the living room. We all cuddle together and it's great until Harry starts speaking. 

"Lou I know today was really difficult and you were stressed out but Ed and I really need you to start trusting us." He says

"I know but I didn't need help the boys just overreact about everything" I say